Thursday, April 12, 2007
Things that make me smile
-Laying in bed with Audrey next to me, and having her very earnestly communicate whatever "Ba Ba Ba Da Da Da" means.
-Laying Hannah down for a nap and telling her it's naptime, and her responding "Hmm??"
-Watching Hannah push her new doll stroller around for hours
-Walking into the girls room after naps and finding Audrey pulled up to her knees at the side of her crib ("You're too little to do that yet!")
These things are priceless, I'm tellin' ya.
Wednesday, April 11, 2007
Thoughts from Easter
Actual Spiritual Thoughts:
1. My Easter always revolves around The Thorn production at New Life, and family get-togethers.
2. I used to be IN The Thorn every year. That was B.C. (Before Children)
3. Seeing the passion over and over again always seemed to help it sink in.
4. I miss having that time to think about it. My friend Kim who is Catholic blogged about the three hours of silence they observe on Good Friday. Why don't we all do that?
5. There was NO OTHER WAY for us to be reconciled to God, except for Christ to endure what He did. He didn't want to do it, but He knew he had to, so He did. I'm so grateful.
Related Rather Un-Spiritual Thoughts:
1. Most old people become really funny. Can we grow older without becoming stubborn and unhappy? I hope so.
2. Hannah on Peeps is not very fun.
3. My siblings and parents are great. We had one of the best get-togethers I can remember.
4. When will Colorado quit pretending it is winter in April?
5. My mom made an awesome gluten-free meal. Wow, was that nice.
6. My mom and sisters and I are starting a business. It's gonna be cool. Details to follow.
Hope you had a great Easter
Monday, April 9, 2007
"Diet"
Weight is such a huge issue. Yes, I have always been a skinny person. Some of it is genes, but if you saw certain extended family members, you would understand that is not all of it. I think most of what causes families to be skinny together, are the eating habits they pass on to each other.
Two things this takes: time, and money. It's not quick to eat right, but the time involved requires balance in life - something we need anyway. When it takes me an hour to make dinner, I have time to interact with my family in the kitchen and think about stuff and keep my countertops and refrigerator clean. When we mindfully choose to spend a big portion of our income on healthy food, it keeps our attention there. I feel like making sacrifices in these two areas sorts out other life issues before they even become issues.
The last thing being "I hate you" skinny takes, is knowledge. The fact is, the old "don't eat fat, live on carbs" approach doesn't work. Neither does just not eating. I will guarantee you, if you are eating well and still not losing weight, you are probably allergic to something you eat regularly. There are lots of different opinions about losing weight, but you can always tell which ones work and which don't. The ones that make people miserable and unable to stick with it long term don't work - even if people lose weight on them. If you can't stick with it, it doesn't work. Right?
I read this article today, and although I don't agree with all of it, the general idea is right on. I personally eat more protein even than this diet, with hardly ever going more than four hours without protein and carbs. Eat often - your metabolism needs it.
Also, cheating occasionally is totally FINE. If you NEED chocolate, go to the store and buy a bar of really good chocolate, for when you have to have it. If you spend money on it, you won't eat it nonstop, and it will be more satisfying anyway. I eat a ton of stuff I don't usually when we go to holiday meals and stuff. I'm sick for a couple days afterward, but it's usually worth it. Just don't eat like that every day. The weight will melt off.
Lastly, food is a major personal thing. I long ago lost any sense of privacy about what I eat and how much because the only way to control my seizures was to tell people about everything I ate. So, another piece of advice I have is make yourself accountable. This is the best part of seeing a nutritionist. You are required to keep a journal of everything you eat. No more snacks you're ashamed of.
Now, go get yourself some raw nuts and a piece of fruit.
Tuesday, April 3, 2007
Sunblock, Vitamin D and Cancer
Now, obviously there is some risk of TOO much sun. We don't want heatstroke and we don't want peeling and blistering sunburns. That would just be stupid. On the other hand, I personally don't want to wear makeup that has sunblock every day or cover my kids in it every time they step outside. We have to have some exposed skin that receives sunshine on it so that our bodies can produce vitamin D. Seriously, it's hard enough to get enough sun here in Colorado because of the cold...
Monday, April 2, 2007
Really need to get off the computer...
| Random | |
|---|---|
| Do you have any pets? | 3 fish |
| What color shirt are you wearing? | black |
| Name three things that are physically close to you: | baby rattle, dish rag, phone |
| What is the last book you read? | Fight Like a Girl by Lisa Bevere - it's a good one |
| Are you or were you a good student? | yes |
| What's your favorite sport? | yuck |
| Do you enjoy sleeping late? | very much |
| What's the weather like right now? | windy and sunny |
| Who tells the best jokes? | David Letterman, occasionally |
| What was the last thing you dreamed about? | never remember |
| Do you drive? If so, have you ever crashed? | Yes, and yes. |
| Do you believe in karma? | No |
| Do you believe in luck? | No |
| Do you like your eggs scrambled or sunny side up? | over medium |
| Do you collect anything? If so, what? | books |
| Are you proud of yourself? | yes, usually. i do a pretty good job. |
| Are you reliable? | i was before i had kids! |
| Have you ever given money to a bum? | yes |
| What's your favorite food? | avocado is a current favorite. i also LOVE peaches. |
| Have you ever had a secret admirer? | many |
| Do you like the smell of gasoline? | no |
| Do like to draw? | i'm terrible |
| What's your favorite invention? | the internet |
| Is your room messy? | it's not bad |
| What do you like better: oranges or apples? | apples. oranges make my mouth hurt |
| Do you give in easily? | never |
| Are you a good guesser? | not really |
| Can you read other people's expressions? | yes, to a fault |
| Are you a bully? | i could be if i wasn't so afraid of being one |
| Do you have a job? | yes, taking care of my kids. and teaching piano |
| What time did you wake up this morning? | uh...which time? 3am, 7am, or 9am? |
| What did you eat for breakfast this morning? | toast with almond butter |
| When was the last time you showered? | a couple hours ago |
| What do you plan on doing tomorrow? | teaching piano lessons |
| What's your favorite day of the week and why? | probably Sunday. I love my church |
| Do you have any nicknames? | Sara Kay |
| Have you ever been scuba diving? | no. snorkeling though. |
| What's your least favorite color? | not a big fan of blue |
| Is there someone you have been constantly thinking about? If yes, who? | have a couple of friends going through tough stuff that i pray for a lot |
| Would you ever go skydiving? | probably not now that i have kids |
| What toothpaste do you use? | don't ask |
| Do you enjoy challenges? | yes |
| What's the worst injury you have had? | probably something following a seizure |
| What's the last movie you saw? | A Night with the King. |
| What do you want to know about the future? | in reality? nothing. if i knew i would try to control it. |
| What does your last text message say? | I sent you an email. I'm at work so I can't talk. Sorry. |
| Who was the last person you spoke over the phone to? | Somebody at US airways |
| What's your favorite school subject? | English |
| What's your least favorite school subject? | Math |
| Would you rather have money or love? | love...but money is nice if i can have it too |
| What is your dream vacation? | a private beach |
| What is your favorite animal? | cat |
| Do you miss anyone right now? | Nick |
| What's the last sporting event you watched? | we watched a little baseball last night |
| Do you need to do laundry? | most definitely |
| Do you listen to the radio? | not too much since i got an mp3 player |
| Where were you when 9/11 happened? | sleeping |
| What do you do when vending machines steal your money? | grumble. then find somebody to give it back to me. |
| Have you ever caught a butterfly? | yes |
| What color are your bed sheets? | kinda purplish-brownish |
| What's your ringtone? | i don't have any cool ones |
| Who was the last person to make you laugh? | Hannah |
| Do you have any obsessions right now? | my kids and husband would probably qualify |
| Do you like things that glow in the dark? | uh...ok? |
| What's your favorite fruity scent? | gross. |
| Do you watch cartoons? | Finding Nemo. Every day. |
| Have you ever sat on a roof? | yes, but it's been a while |
| Have you ever been to a different country? | Germany and Switzerland |
| Name three things in the world you dislike: | people who tailgate, bad smells, cold |
| Name three people in the world you dislike: | no thanks |
| Has a rumor even been spread about you? | probably |
| Do you like sushi? | don't consider myself very knowledgable about it, but what i've had isn't bad |
| Do you believe in magic? | well...the spirit world anyway. |
| Do you hold grudges? | no. that's too hard. |
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FUN!
Hannah: (Running up to me) FUN!
Me: Are you having fun?
Hannah: Uh-huh! (Runs away)
I laughed.
Friday, March 30, 2007
Ponderings
I was one of the star performers in the yearly children's musicals we did for our church of 300. My Gramma was in a singing group that had me sing the solo for their Christmas show one year. As a teenager I was involved in "Summer Funner Theater" here. It was basically a VBS with a show at the end, but every one required a lead...guess who did that? I also played keyboards and sang with the youth worship band every Sunday. Straight out of high school I had my job with the worship ministry and began singing on mics and playing keys on occasion. One weekend all the usual soloists were out, and I ended up with the special music. I sang Carolyn Arends'"Seize the Day" and had people come up to me talking about it for literally 6 months. When I went to Bible school I played with the worship band that toured. When I was at ORU I got more in scholarship money than any other pianist I knew, with the exception of the two prodigies who probably will go on to be concert performers. I'm a very good accompanist. At my church in Tulsa I played very frequently with the worship band, most weekends. I was going to play keys on their worship recording.
(I feel like Paul must have, recording all his qualifications and then saying, "Whatever was to my credit I now consider loss for the sake of Christ..." Bear with me here, folks.)
Then, it all stopped. In January, after two years at ORU, I just didn't have the money anymore. Nick and I were engaged and going to be married that summer. He still had a semester of school left. I was over two years from graduating. With a heavy heart, I called and quit everything I was committed to, and moved home. That was 2004. I think I've played for worship twice since then, and had a brief stint as the New Life choir accompanist. I also played for the youth choir for a year. But the thing that is my heart is worship ministry, and that has seemed to be on hold.
I've written about this some already over the past several weeks, because it has been on my mind a lot. I have children now, and I feel very strongly about staying home with them and being there to raise them. Nobody else can do my job. Why would God call somebody to worship ministry, and I was positive He had, and then bless them with children so they are unable to fulfill the first calling? I have always seen the two callings as separate.
A couple weeks ago I was finishing up the Bible Study I've been working through, and it was encouraging me to write a personal mission statement. I have always struggled with this, because my two missions were, in my mind, so mutually exclusive. How can children and worship ministry work together? Lack of distraction is so deeply ingrained in the way worship ministry should be done, and children are, by nature, distracting. I stopped reading and said to God, "How can I do that? I've tried." What I heard was, "Why are they separate?"
Seems simple maybe, but it has been a revelation to me. If my "calling" in this world is to encourage and exhort others to worship God, then that starts with my own children. Who in the world can I influence more in that area than my own children? This filters down into every area of life - encouraging them to live righteous lives so they have clear consciences, teaching them social skills so they can live in healthy relationships, even feeding them good food so their bodies are strong can fall under helping them to worship more effectively. I may not be able to get on stage with a band right now, but I can certainly create an atmosphere of worship in my home.
I think this is a message that most stay-at-home moms probably need. It's easy to lose your identity in staying at home. But, for most people there is something in the world that makes you passionate and energized. Maybe it is your kids, but most people I think need something more than that if they're honest with themselves. Most of us who stay home have skills and passions we lay aside in favor of raising our children ourselves, but that doesn't mean those cease to be part of who we are, it just means we don't get the recognition we used to. Maybe people don't know me everywhere I go anymore, but maybe I'm raising the next Darlene Zscech. Or maybe my time is yet to come again, and I will face it with a greater maturity, humility and understanding than I ever could have before my kids. Either way, nothing is on hold around here anymore.
Thursday, March 29, 2007
Entertainment for a Thursday afternoon
Wednesday, March 21, 2007
Hannah at the library
I think I've written before about my memories of the library. Somehow my incredible mother managed to take 5 kids to the library at least once a month. I vividly remember her telling us we could each get 10 books. I don't have a clue how she got 5 kids under 11 and 50+ books OUT of the library, but she did. I have loved books ever since. I read at 4 and was known to devour entire books in one sitting in late elementary school. I read several hours a day sometimes.
It was with those memories putting a smile on my face, that I took Hannah and Audrey to the library today. We had a great time. Hannah and I picked out three books to read. She carried them herself all the way from the children's section to the check out line. Then, when she saw we had to wait in line, she plopped down on the floor in the middle of everything, and began to look at her books. I still can't wipe the smile off my face.
I like lentil soup...lentil soup?
Bert: I like lentil soup
Ernie: Lentil soup?
Bert: Yes, I do...
Ernie: I don't really like any of those things...but I...like...you!
I made lentil soup for dinner tonight. It was yummy, and Hannah even ate it. I was prepared to make her something different! Lentils are pretty cool little things. 28% of your daily fiber and 11g of protein in one serving.
I've been seeing them everywhere lately. Have you ever noticed that there are food fads? Like, sun-dried tomatoes and asiago cheese...that is SO three years ago! Anyway, I decided to try it. This recipe is really good.
The changes I made are:
Only one large onion - we're not huge onion people
One 14oz can of tomatoes - we're not huge tomato people either, and I didn't have a big can. :)
A splash of apple cider vinegar instead of the wine - I still don't have a clue how to buy wine, although I'm not opposed to cooking with it.
One cup of COOKED brown rice - add right before serving. Whole grains will make it a complete protein also. The recipe suggests adding cheese which would do the same thing and be pretty tasty, but it sure would make us all sick!
Try it - you'll like it!
Tuesday, March 20, 2007
Oh Boy...
Ghostbusters Theme Song: In List Format
* Things I ain't afraid of:
o no ghost
* Strange things in the neighborhood (partial list):
o seeing things running through head
o invisible man sleeping in bed
* Things that make me feel good:
o bustin'
* Who you gonna call:
o Ghostbusters
o I can't hear you
o Louder
Tuesday, March 13, 2007
Monday, March 12, 2007
Slowing down
Although it took us literally all day to get ready, at 3:00 I put Hannah and Audrey in the stroller, and took them to the park. To do this, I first have to push them up the biggest hill around here. This hill has deterred me several times when I have considered heading to the park. But today, with the sunshine and the warm breeze, it didn't seem bad at all. Once we got there, Hannah wanted to swing and I put Audrey in one of the baby swings as well. There were my two little girls, just smiling and giggling and enjoying the sunshine, swinging side-by-side.
We must have been quite a scene, because Hannah still has a little trouble walking on the playground sand, and I had Audrey on my hip. While holding Audrey, I helped Hannah climb up the steps and go down the slide. Multiple times, of course.
Nick has always been impressed at what I can pull off without help. My reply to him has always been, "A determined woman can do many things." I don't remember where I got that, but I doubt it's original. Determination has allowed me to move furniture and work long hours and stay home with two children under 2.
I'm beginning to discover something else that raising children requires, in addition to determination - TIME. Gone are the days when running errands is a quick process. Grocery shopping is most definitely a scene for us. I get out, put on the Baby Bjorn, put Audrey in it, then get Hannah out (which usually involves putting her shoes and socks back on while avoiding hitting Audrey's head on anything), hold Hannah's hand while we walk in or carry her on my hip WITH Audrey in the carrier. Once inside, Hannah goes in the cart. Lots of people have encouraged me to leave errand running to daddy - or to go when he can watch the kids. Some people I know even leave their kids with a babysitter while running errands. I don't fault them.
When I was a kid, we did everything with my mom. I can't imagine what it looked like for her to bring 5 children under 11 into the grocery store, but we did it every week. Everywhere we went - stores, restaurants, church - people constantly remarked how well-behaved we all were. We weren't the ones running the aisles with mom yelling and trying to keep us corralled. We sat in or walked next to the cart, sometimes begging for things, but we knew what was expected of us. This is what I want for my kids.
I think my point is this - it takes forever to do stuff, ANYTHING, with kids. But I want to involve them in normal life. It's becoming less about how many tasks I can accomplish in a day, and more about how I connected and trained my kids. This is tough for someone who has always prided herself on her efficiency. Kids don't care at all how efficient you are. I could finish all my errands in an hour before I had kids, now it takes me all week, but when Hannah looks up at me from her carseat and says, "Walk?" I love that I can slow down, realize the toddling speed at which she is able to walk will be fine, and say "Okay, you can walk." That grin is worth it.
Saturday, March 10, 2007
It's raining
I got my hair colored today. It's blond. I haven't been blond in a long time. I don't think Nick likes it much, but he's afraid to say so. It's definitely different.
Drew Barrymore is on Saturday Night Live. I like her. She always seems happy. There's a lot to be said for being comfortable in your own skin. She seems to be.
Nick is currently sound asleep on the couch.
I really should go to bed since we lose an hour tonight. I don't wanna.
We're going to Nebraska to visit Nick's family and take part in our niece Becca's baptism next weekend. We haven't seen them in a long time, and the change of scenery will be really nice. The girls also get to meet Nick's grandma for the first time. She lives in Ord, Nebraska. It's a happenin' place.
OK, guess I'll quit procrastinating and get ready for bed.
Thursday, March 8, 2007
C-sections
Tuesday, March 6, 2007
Elderberry and flu
And while I'm on the subject, this article about Tamiflu and flu vaccines sums up what I believe about those. Wash hands, carry wipes in the car to use after going places, if you do get sick use Oscillococcinum and elderberry as soon as you feel it come on. These are safe even for very little kids at 1/3 the adult dose.
OK. Done with my soapbox for the day.
Thursday, March 1, 2007
Processing
"Letting Jesus change you with His word and take you where He wants you to go is the great adventure of this life."
I though it rather profound.
I was one of those kids who never doubted what God was going to do in the world through me. As an 18 year old, straight out of high school, I landed a job as the worship ministry secretary for Woodmen Valley Chapel. At the time, the church was about 5,000 people. The worship ministry had a database of over 200 volunteers as well as a full time staff of 5. I was the only administrative help for the department. I was in WAY over my head. But even so, they trusted me with the position.
For years, I daydreamed about starting a worship ministry of some kind. One that would send me traveling the world, playing and singing for thousands. Actually, I did do that some. I thought I had found my purpose.
Fast forward a few years. I currently have four private piano students, one of them being my little sister. My days are filled with diapers, laundry and messes. I'm pretty sure it's been just over 3 years since I played consistently with a band. I used to be on stage at least once, if not twice a week. I found so much of my value in that. It was who I was. I still have a heart for worship ministry, but my heart to raise my girls to be Godly women, and to be available for them is so much more passionate. Sometimes I begin to feel that I've left that other life behind for good.
Here's the kicker: my life is not on hold. As long as I continue to allow Jesus to transform me with His word, I'm moving forward. I have never made any decisions that I felt were out of God's will, so therefore this place I find myself must be exactly where I'm supposed to be - no matter what it feels like on some days. And for that matter, even if I had made poor decisions, God has a way of working things out for the good of those who love Him. He promised to do that. I can trust that He will. No need to second guess and wonder and feel left out. My job is simply to stay open to His word and the adventure He has for me.
Joy comes in the morning
Audrey slept 8 hours straight for the first time last night, the Bible study got postponed because of the snow, Nick worked from home this morning so he did the early morning diaper changes, and it's only 10:30 and Audrey's already napping and Hannah will be ready soon. Plus, the snow is already melting. That makes me happy too. I want it to be spring now!
I think it's great how just when you don't think you can do anymore, you (usually) get a break. :)
Wednesday, February 28, 2007
You're kidding, right?
Neither girl would take a nap this afternoon, which meant that by 6pm they were wiped out. They both slept until 8ish. Currently Nick, who doesn't feel good, is sound asleep on the couch and both girls are wide awake no where near ready for bed. It is 10:15. Hannah refused to eat the fish that I made for dinner, so she is currently covered in almond butter and crackers.
Tomorrow morning I'm supposed to go to my second to last meeting of my Bible study and then have the mom's group in the afternoon. I bet you could guess what my house looks like. Hmmmm...
Cloned Foods
Tuesday, February 27, 2007
Don't you understand that it's nap time?
Can we move yet?
Saturday, February 24, 2007
Dictionary Definition
Sara -- [adjective]: Smells like teen spirit 'How will you be defined in the dictionary?' at QuizGalaxy.com |
Friday, February 23, 2007
Shopping with the girls
Thursday, February 22, 2007
Interview
Tuesday, February 20, 2007
I got bored
| Basics: | |
|---|---|
| Name: | Sara |
| Date of Birth: | June 4, 1980 |
| Birthplace: | Fullerton , CA |
| Current Location: | Springs |
| Eye Color: | Hazelish |
| Hair Color: | light brown |
| Height: | 5'9 1/4" |
| Heritage: | German/British/Cherokee |
| Piercings: | two in each ear |
| Tattoos: | none |
| Favourite: | |
| Band/Singer: | Uh...this changes frequently. Of all time...probably Coldplay |
| Song: | Couldn't pick one to save my life |
| Movie: | Pride and Prejudice, the new one |
| Disney Movie: | Robin Hood |
| TV show: | What Not to Wear |
| Color: | I really like yellow lately |
| Food: | My chicken stir-fry |
| Pizza topping: | pepperoni |
| Ice-Cream Flavor: | chocolate anything |
| Drink (alcoholic): | banana daquiri |
| Soda: | haven't had one in 10 years |
| Store: | if I could afford it, Banana Republic |
| Clothing Brand: | whatever |
| Shoe Brand: | steve madden |
| Season: | warm |
| Month: | May |
| Holiday/Festival: | Christmas |
| Flower: | anything but mums. |
| Make-Up Item: | never go without concealer |
| Board game: | i hate board games, much to Nick's dismay |
| This or That | |
| Sunny or rainy: | yes |
| Chocolate or vanilla: | chocolate or REAL vanilla, like vanilla bean |
| Fruit or veggie: | yes |
| Night or day: | yes |
| Sour or sweet: | both |
| Love or money: | both |
| Phone or in person: | in person |
| Looks or personality: | both |
| Coffee or tea: | tea |
| Hot or cold: | hot |
| Your: | |
| Goal for this year: | Stability - financial, health, living situation, church, relationships |
| Most missed memory: | Ravencrest or playing with worship bands |
| Best physical feature: | uh... |
| First thought waking up: | where are hannah and audrey? |
| Hypothetical personality disorder: | what does that mean? what i would probably have? how should i know? |
| Preferred type of plastic surgery: | so far i'm fairly satisfied |
| Sesame street alter ego: | big bird |
| Fairytale alter ego: | belle |
| Most stupid remark: | there's been many |
| Worst crime: | not really a crime, but sneaking in after curfew at Ravencrest |
| Greatest ambition: | Personally, to be a great wife and mother. Professionally, to someday be paid to lead worship |
| Greatest fear: | losing a child. can hardly even write it. |
| Darkest secret: | no thanks |
| Favorite subject: | Always was English |
| Strangest received gift: | can't think of any weird ones |
| Worst habit: | picking zits. EW! |
| Do You: | |
| Smoke: | never |
| Drink: | not regularly |
| Curse: | nope, I have a vocabulary |
| Shower daily: | mostly |
| Like thunderstorms: | they're fine |
| Dance in the rain: | occasionally |
| Sing: | yep |
| Play an instrument: | piano |
| Get along with your parents: | yep |
| Wish on stars: | sure |
| Believe in fate: | nope |
| Believe in love at first sight: | it can start that way, then it becomes a choice |
| Can You: | |
| Drive: | not at the moment |
| Sew: | i have learned, but don't have a machine currently |
| Cook: | yep. I'm pretty good I think |
| Speak another language: | not fluently. i know some spanish and some german |
| Dance: | No. I'm horrible. |
| Sing: | Yep |
| Touch your nose with your tongue: | Nope |
| Whistle: | Yes |
| Curl your tongue: | No! Lame, huh? |
| Have You Ever: | |
| Been Drunk: | No |
| Been Stoned/High: | No |
| Eaten Sushi: | Yes |
| Been in Love: | Yes |
| Skipped school: | Not without permission |
| Made prank calls: | Don't think so |
| Sent someone a love letter: | yes |
| Stolen something: | no |
| Cried yourself to sleep: | yes |
| Other Questions: | |
| What annoys you most in a person? | not taking care of themselves |
| Are you right or left handed? | right |
| What is your bedtime? | 11ish |
| Name three things you can't live without: | my computer, my piano, and my Bible are awfully nice. not in that order |
| What is the color of your room? | white. lame. |
| Do you have any siblings? | 4, all younger |
| Do you have any pets? | not yet |
| Would you kill someone you hate for a million dollars? | no |
| What is you middle name? | Kay |
| What are you nicknames? | Nothing besides Sara Kay |
| Are you for or against gay marriage? | Very against |
| What are your thoughts on abortion? | I think we should educate women on the alternatives. Then, most wouldn't think they even need to do that. Outlawin them won't fix the real problem. |
| Do you have a crush on anyone? | my wonderful husband |
| Are you afraid of the dark? | only when i watch scary movies |
| How do you want to die? | painlessly |
| What is the largest amount of popsicles that you have eaten on one day? | one? |
| Would you take a bullet for the one you love? | yes |
| What is the last law you’ve broken? | speed limits |
| In a Member of the Opposite Sex: | |
| Hair color: | brown |
| Eye color: | brown |
| Height | 5'11" |
| Weight | this is changing right now |
| Most important physical feature: | eyes and hands |
| Biggest turn-off | bad breath. :) |
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Every parent has to make their own decision about vaccines for their family, but I think it is important to be well-informed about the choice, not just choose it by default.
Monday, February 19, 2007
Protecting our girls
Discipline
I'm Amazed
Sunday, February 18, 2007
Fun night
Saturday, February 17, 2007
Worn out
Hannah has had 102.6 fever for two days. No other symptoms. Audrey has a runny nose but no fever. Little kids shouldn't have to get sick, it's too sad. But, have you ever noticed how beautiful kids are when they have fever? Bright eyes and rosy cheeks... Poor baby! Hopefully she'll feel better tomorrow.
I'm feeling better every day now. Wednesday was my last really tough day. My eye is almost well, and it's a little easier for me to talk. The flashes of light have diminished also. I'm very relieved, and I think I will be feeling almost normal here in the next few days.
Thursday, February 15, 2007
Facts
-My black eye is looking much better.
-My stomach hurts nonstop. Can't decide if that's because of what Dr P is having me take to straighten it out, or if it's just stress.
-Nick is having a hard time leaving me home alone, so he's way behind on his hours at work.
-If I get stressed at all, I see little flashes of light everywhere.
-I still have a hard time communicating. I forget words and can't translate feelings into words. I also cannot make decisions to save my life right now. I guess that's because of the concussion.
-So many people are praying for us. If you are among them, we are forever grateful. And it is helping!
-We are looking for a ranch style home to move to as soon as our landlord finds someone who wants our townhouse. Less stairs=safer living for me and the girls.
-Nick is going to begin working from home as soon as we can work it out.
-Things will get better.
Monday, February 12, 2007
Just because it looks fun...
Aprons - Y/N? If yes, what does your favorite look like? Not so far, but someday I might.
Baking - Favorite thing to bake: Eh. Baking is a lot of work right now. I'm good at gluten-free mixes!
Clothesline - Y/N? No, but that sounds nice.
Donuts - Have you ever made them? Nope. Sounds like a stomach ache!
Every day - One homemaking thing you do every day: A load of dishes
Freezer - Do you have a separate deep freeze? Not yet. Someday.
Garbage Disposal - Y/N? Yes.
Handbook - The internet
Ironing - I literally do not remember the last time. We have a clothes steamer, or we throw it in the dryer for a few minutes. We have Nick's shirts laundered occasionally.
Junk Drawer - Y/N? Alas, a necessary evil.
Kitchen - Color and decorating scheme? White with oak cabinets. Not my choice...yet.
Love - What is your favorite part of homemaking? Feeding my family healthy food that makes them strong. And organizing closets. And doing laundry. I really do enjoy those for some reason.
Mop - Y/N? Yes, but not often enough.
Nylons - Only if I hafta...or if it's too cold to wear the skirt I want to wear.
Oven - Do you use the window or open the door to check? Open the door. I don't have a window.
Pizza - What do you put on yours? Pizza is a thing of the past around our house right now.
Quiet - Reading, internet
Recipe card box - Y/N? What does it look like? Yes, it's a black plastic note card box from Walmart.
Style of house - What is the style of your house? Townhouse
Tablecloths and napkins - Y/N? Don't have any tablecloths I like. Napkins - we sometimes do cloth for company, paper for everyday.
Under the kitchen sink - Organized or toxic wasteland? Not bad. Child-proofed!
Vacuum - Preferably twice a week.
Wash - How many loads of laundry do you do per week? 5 or 6?
X's - Do you keep a list of things to do that you cross off? Once the list gets so long that it's making my head spin, yes.
Yard - Y/N? Who does what? Once we have a lawn, Nick will do the mowing. I do the flowers/gardening.
Zzz's - What is your last homemaking task before going to bed? Start the dishwasher/pick up the living room.
Wow. I'm not as domestic as I thought I was!
Saturday, February 10, 2007
Recovering
We went to see Dr. P today. It was a rather somber visit. To make a long story short, my digestion gets all out of whack very easily. It always has. Any small amount of stress and I just basically quit digesting. It has been off for quite a while at this point...maybe a couple years since I really felt great. The wormwood I was on was to try to fix this, but instead it overwhelmed my system and triggered a seizure.
Events I have been through in the past three years without having a seizure:
-My own wedding and most of the planning of it (my last seizure was 3 months before our wedding, when I was in the airport flying back to Tulsa alone to visit Nick. I had gotten up at 4am.)
-FOUR moves, one of them being out of my parent's house for the last time
-Our honeymoon in Cancun
-My pregnancy with Hannah
-My c-section with Hannah
-My pregnancy with Audrey that started when Hannah was 8 months old
-My homebirth with Audrey
-This past summer, with landlord issues, a homebirth, and a move 4 days postpartum all at once
Any one of those could/should have triggered a seizure, seeing as how they are usually brought on by stress and lack of sleep. At this point, each one of those events is an extra measure of confidence.
So, based on all that, our plan is for Nick to begin working from home starting immediately. Thankfully, he works for my parents. He can do that. As soon as our landlord can re-rent our townhouse, we are going to move to a ranch-style house that will require very little going up and down stairs, just to be safe. And, most importantly, I'm on a new regimen to finally get my digestion under control. We've looked into medication some, but I'm not ready to quit breastfeeding, and Audrey getting that medication in her system can even cause learning disabilities. No thanks! Plus, what we're doing seems to be working well except for this little blip...
I most likely have a concussion, so if I'm a little spacey over the next few weeks, don't be weirded out. :) I feel a little like I have static in my head, but I'm looking forward to going back to my normal schedule as I'm able. I'm very grateful that any damage I have is temporary, and my babies are safe.
If you read all this, thanks for your concern and prayers for me and us.
Tuesday, February 6, 2007
Upon further thought
-I have never before had a seizure:
a.in the evening
b.while NOT on my period
c.without being sleep-deprived
d.without eating junk or not eating often enough
e.while not in the middle of a major life change (going to school, etc.)
-This seizure seems to have been stronger than the ones in the past. I actually broke blood vessels in my face during it. That has never happened.
-I had just increased my dose of the wormwood on Saturday, from 1-2/day to 3/day.
-I also had a little bit of sage in a meatloaf I made for dinner that night. The reading I did today says people with seizure disorders should avoid sage altogether.
-I have had two completely healthy pregnancies. Pregnancy is notorious for bringing on seizures in people susceptible. I didn't have one.
-I had JUST taken my pills when it happened, including the one in question.
It's just too weird. I'm going to see Dr. P on Saturday. We'll talk with him and see if he agrees. Based on the fact that it's been 3 years since the last one, and this didn't line up with the rest, it currently doesn't make sense to us for me to go on medication and endure the side effects and the cost.
We are still thinking that moving to a single-floor living situation would be more ideal and provide a little more safety, just in case. However, breaking our lease comes with another host of problems. Anybody want to take over our lease? $830 a month...it's a nice place!
We're very encouraged tonight, Nick and I. It still will be maybe a couple weeks before I don't look like I was beaten. It's pretty bad, folks. But, if we have just learned a little more about what will keep me and my family safe, it'll be okay.
Update
For right now, I'm just trying to concentrate on getting well, and we are spending our days at my parents' house so I don't have to be alone with the girls at home. Possiblities we are looking at include medication, finding a house or at least a property with two houses to share with my parents so they are close by to help, just us moving so we will no longer have a long steep flight of stairs, Nick working from home, and others. BUT! Maybe this was just a freak thing because of that wormwood I was taking for an intestinal problem, who knows? How can we know?
The worst part is the unanswered questions...
Monday, February 5, 2007
Sometimes life is tough...
I fell on the kitchen floor and banged my cheek bone and chin up pretty badly, and I look like somebody hit me. I also bit up my tongue and all my muscles are sore. I'm really hurting. Please pray for strength and wisdom for us in this time.
Sunday, February 4, 2007
This is a pretty good one...
Wow! You are awesome! You are a true Biblical scholar, not just a hearer but a personal reader! The books, the characters, the events, the verses - you know it all! You are fantastic!
Ultimate Bible Quiz
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Wednesday, January 31, 2007
Like we needed proof...
I usually am not a huge fan of history channel stuff that attempts to prove or disprove Biblical accounts. This is the best I've ever seen. The show follows an explorer/researcher through his pursuit to confirm that the Exodus of the Bible was a real, historical event. The evidence he found gave me chills. I have to say that seeing this kind of thing helps my faith grow. I'm recording it for Nick later today...
Tuesday, January 30, 2007
My Favorite Dinner
Nick found out he is allergic to chicken. Yes, it's weird. How can you be allergic to chicken? But, he is. He also had to work late tonight. Guess what I made?
Okay, so it's not terribly photogenic, but this is my favorite dinner of all. I lived on this stuff while I was in college. I'd make a big 'ol pan of it and eat it for days. I don't know what it is about this stuff, but I'll tell ya how I make it.
Chicken Stir Fry
Serves 1-3
1lb. boneless skinless chicken breasts, cut into 1-1 1/2 inch pieces
1/2 onion, chopped
3-4 different kinds of vegetables, chopped (I like carrots, celery, red pepper and zuchini)
2-3 cups chicken broth
2-3 tablespoons flour (rice flour works great for us gluten-free folk!)
Olive oil
In a deep skillet over medium heat, saute the onion in the olive oil until transparent. Add chicken, stir occasionally until cooked through. Add veggies and enough broth to not quite cover them. Put a lid on the pan and allow it to steam the veggies until al dente, or tender, whichever you like. Then, shake tablespoons of flour over the whole dish and stir gently. The flour will thicken the broth and give you almost a stew. Adjust the amount of flour and broth for the thickness you like. Add salt and pepper to taste, and a little marjoram or oregano is good too.
Serve over cooked brown rice with extra salt and pepper, if needed. (Don't be afraid to add salt for flavor - this is not as good if it's bland! :)
Voila! Healthy comfort food!
Friday, January 26, 2007
Women
I have read a few books about this. Captivating (Eldredge) is mostly about God's heart toward women. It talks, among other things, about how men show the strong, warrior side of God, and women can show the merciful, lifegiving side of God. Since we're created in His image (ok, long theological debate there, but go with me for a minute), He demonstrates aspects of His character through His creation. That resounds with me, especially when I look at my babies and think, "You did not even exist before." I had a part in giving life to a person. That is a massive thought.
I also recently read The Red Tent (Diamant). Before you go out and get it, let me warn you that it is very sexual in content. No worse than the standard paperback novel, I would guess. I don't read many of those, but definitely at least PG-13 rated in my book. This book is the imagined story of what Dinah, the daughter of Jacob and Leah in the Bible, could have been like. The author took her extensive knowledge of Jewish tradition and married it with the Biblical narrative. It makes for fascinating reading, even though you know it's just a story. Anyway, the main point of the book is exploring feminine relationships - sister to sister, mother to daughter, friend to friend, and the power that is there. The book treats the husband-wife relationship just as powerfully, but shows there is also something unique to female relationships that is needed in our lives.
Besides those books, I also have my own experiences. I've had one emergency c-section and one homebirth. I know women who have had both experiences, and there are many common things between us. I also lead a small group for women, which probably monthly makes me realize interesting things about how women live and make life work. I also have two sisters and a mother in town, and we communicate fairly openly between the four of us. And, I have two amazing little girls whom I love dearly.
I haven't yet found some answers I'm looking for. I think maybe that's because I'm not sure what the question is. What does it mean to be a woman? Maybe. Seems a little too broad (no pun intended!:). How does God use us as women? Yes, but still not quite right. Maybe it's about purpose and what I'm meant to demonstrate to the world around me. I'm just not sure.
One thing I do know - I'm enchanted by women who are doing it, whatever it is, well. And I'm deeply grieved by women who have been broken down by the world and can't do it at all.
Tuesday, January 23, 2007
Prayer Request
Monday, January 22, 2007
We got our car!
And...Audrey slept from 9pm to 5am last night. It was glorious.
Sunday, January 21, 2007
Provision
First, a little background. I've already written about how I grew up financially. We lived sale-to-sale on nothing and then like kings after one. This carried over to my first home on my own as an adult. At 22, I decided to quit delaying the inevitable, and went away to college. Due to my medical stuff and the fact that I treat it nutritionally, the private university that "required" all single students to live on campus and buy a dining room meal plan basically forced me to get my own apartment and move out of the dorms. This was great except for two things: I never made many close friends at school, and I did not have the money to live on my own.
I was in school as a music student full time (which all music students know means full time plus practice time. The schedule is insane.) The economy was not great at home so my parents' business hit a lull. I had to figure out how to even stay at school. I took I think 15 private piano students and charged them $15 per lesson. My own piano teacher who had most of her doctorate didn't make much more than that I don't think, and after asking what I charged, was furious with me for charging that much. Hey, people were willing to pay it and I gave them everything I had.
I barely scraped by each month on my piano income, and lived for the day that my school loans would be paid out to the school, and I could request and receive the refund check from the school for the amount I borrowed that went above the cost of tuition. Usually that check would come halfway through the semester. It was usually around $1500.
Having that much money all at once, finally, felt normal to me. I made up for lost time. I went tanning, bought new clothes, at one point bought a palm pilot. But most of all, I would go to Walmart. Every time I got one of those checks, I would spend at least $100-200 at Walmart. Now, I was basically setting up my own new household. I started with nothing, so I'm sure some of that "stuff" was necessary. However, I could have done without a whole lot of it. I remember hiking up the stairs to my third floor apartment, arms full of bags in triumph. I also remember the sick feeling in the pit of my stomach when I set all the bags on the folding table in my dining room and thought about how much I had spent and what it had bought. Why did I think I needed all those things? Nothing I bought was bad. It was kitchen utensils, things for my apartment like pillows for the couch, gardening stuff for the pots of flowers on my deck, etc. All of it useful and most of it was something about which I had said, "I wish I had a....(fill in the blank)." So, I had bought one. I also would buy a back-up for everything I used - from ziplock bags to hand soap. It felt better to me to never run out of anything.
Fast-forward to now. Nick and I are working through Dave Ramsey's teachings about debt and money management. We have made a promise to only spend cash that we have in hand. Recently, we realized that our groceries would not last until grocery day, so we stopped by the store to grab a few things. We had limited cash, but only needed to round out the fridge by a few things to make it through three days. We also needed diapers before more money would come. I went into the store...and spent almost every penny. No money for diapers. In the past, Nick would move bills around and smooth it over, even paying something late if we needed to, in order to accomodate my compulsion. This time, he gently suggested that I take back the extra things. Without even wrestling, I knew he was right. As I stood there feeling very conspicuous, watching the new guy at the register try to figure out how to return vegetables, I had a realization: It's all about provision.
That's what this is all about. A question...Will I have what I need? God, after this is gone and I have needs again, will You provide for me again? I fear the answer is no and therefore I hoard. My attempt at control. I can hold out for a while. I have my spare package of toilet paper. I can wait, even if You are late. Even if You forget I need money for food and deprive me for some time, I can provide for myself and my family out of my over-stocked pantry. It sounds so ridiculous, and yet "stuff" has been my security blanket. I have been through so many seasons when God's timing seemed to be off, that I stopped trusting and starting taking matters into my own hands. Instead of allowing my faith to grow and surrendering my sense of timing to His, I took provision on my own shoulders. Yuck.
I guess I post this because I doubt the problem is unique to me. I get such a sense of purpose from helping other people's lives to be better. The thought that I don't have to carry that weight anymore is incredibly freeing to me. If by chance you see yourself in this blog, maybe you can be freed also. I won't make this cheesy by drawing conclusions myself. You can do that. Just know that God is working in my heart through this process. I like stories like that. Thanks for reading mine.
Thursday, January 18, 2007
Amen
When I grow up
-Stay single or at least not have kids, and do full time worship ministry. I still may do this at some point, but it will have to be later in life, and somehow a 50 year old woman is just not as cool as a 20 year old woman when we're taking about band chicks. Ha!
-Become a naturopathic doctor and do for people what Dr. P does for us.
-Become some sort of scientist involving plants. Preferably one that could work all day in a massive greenhouse. I am fascinated by that kind of thing.
-Live in New York, Germany, California, Australia, and Israel. (As an adult. I lived in CA as a child. Doesn't count.)
-Own and operate an organic farm. Maybe we'll do this one yet!
-Be in politics. Run for office or go to Washington and work as an intern.
-Teach high school English. I LOVED my high school English teachers.
-Publish a book. Maybe I still will!
There are probably more. Maybe I'll think of them and add them later. The great thing when I think about this, is I really have chosen my favorite thing - being a mom - at least for the time being. That was always a non-negotiable in my childhood dreams.
What would you do?
Wednesday, January 17, 2007
A Confession
I have no idea. But I hate them.
Tuesday, January 16, 2007
If I could be...wasting my time...with you
This has been a pretty good week, I have to say. Among the fun things:
-Nick and I got to have a date tonight. We're making a new attempt at the weekly date night. So many couples we know swear by it. My sister Holly and brother in law Dave stayed with the girls, and a good time was had by all, I believe. Hannah says "Holly?" (Hawyee?)
-At tonight's date, Nick broke his week-long cleansing fast with Halibut, sweet potatoes and salad at Ranch Steakhouse. They're great - organic produce, wild-caught fish. A little pricey, but not bad when you split something like we did. After doing this fast, everything tastes wonderful. Your taste buds sing when you eat...a carrot. Nick, in whom I have always appreciated his sense of wonder anyway, is so much fun to watch because he is enjoying food so much. Plus, it doesn't make him sick anymore. He has tons of energy, needs only 5 hours of sleep or so, doesn't get headaches, he lost 10 POUNDS in one week - some fat, mostly water weight that his food allergies were keeping him from getting rid of... I wish everybody had the motivation and money to do this stuff Dr. P suggests. The world would simply be a better place.
-Took the girls and went grocery shopping today. There's a little co-op natural foods store that we go to every week. They all know us. The owners always offer Hannah a banana while we shop. We walk in, and there's a collective "HI!" from the staff. It's nice to be known. It's a little like CHEERS. Ha!
-We are, in fact, getting a second car this week. It's literally turquoise, but it's a jeep cherokee that my sister and brother in law are selling us. This is terrific news that I am so excited about. We did do the one-car thing for almost three months though, I think. It can be done. It's not fun, but it can be done. The downside of all this, is the check engine light came on in the jetta this evening. We also still have to get the damage fixed from the hit-and-run incident. If it's not one thing...
-The girls seem to be well again for the most part. Audrey is taking a little longer to get rid of the stuffy nose, but Hannah's croupy cough that sounded awful Friday morning never developed into anything at all. Yay!
-We still haven't dedicated Audrey at church. They do baby dedications every first weekend of the month. We went to Dillard's and found a beautiful christening gown for $25. Hannah has one from her shower, but we needed a stroller instead of an expensive gown when Audrey was born, therefore we've been waiting. Those are just something I wanted the girls to have for keepsakes, and we were able to get Audrey a pretty one. I was so happy about that!
-I got a copy of "The Devil Wears Prada" on Paperbackswap.com. I still haven't seen the movie, but decided I would read the book, just for fun. I'm not a huge fiction reader at all. Anyway, the book is silly and entertaining. "Frivolous," I think is the word the review used. It's fun to do something frivolous now and then.
Alright. I'm done cooking squash for Nick's breakfast (heehee-he has to eat squash for breakfast!), so I suppose I should go to bed. Goodnight all!
Saturday, January 13, 2007
I feel...
Have a lovely Saturday.
Friday, January 12, 2007
Thursday, January 11, 2007
Seriously. You need to do this.
Oh, and if you're in the springs and you want to try it with me, we'll all save money if we can get 4 people together to have it delivered to the same location every week. Let me know if you're interested.
Wednesday, January 10, 2007
today's headlines
*I need new print cartridges. Why are those so expensive?
*The outlet my computer is plugged into keeps turning off. There's nothing wrong with the circuit.
*My girls have fresh, new...colds. With coughs.
*I'm starting door-to-door organics delivery this week. It's gonna be fun...
*I have a new student starting this week. Yay!
*This is a boring post.
Tuesday, January 9, 2007
This is scary...
Monday, January 8, 2007
Today is my mom's birthday
My family has always made a huge deal out of birthdays, and I'm not even entirely sure what we did that made them so fun. The birthday person always got to choose a restaurant for lunch or dinner, and usually an activity. When we were young, we'd have massive parties with 10 or 12 little kids sometimes. I don't know how my mom did it. Yet. I'll be figuring it out shortly!
What do you do to make birthdays special?
Teaching Enthusiasm
Finding the thing that will make that "spark" is the hardest part. The spark does the work for me as a teacher, if I can only find it.
Sunday, January 7, 2007
Do you ever watch mythbusters?
After further thought...
Sorry for the rambling. I suppose I'm trying to work out what's appropriate in my own blogs. :)
Thursday, January 4, 2007
Online Communities
I have this to add: I am currently re-reading a book by John and Stasi Eldredge called "Captivating." Here's an excerpt I think applies:
"For many centuries women lived in close fellowship with other women - gathering at the well, down by the river,m preparing meals - many occasions for femininity to just sort of naturally pass from older women to younger women. Our intuition, our keen eye for relationship, our ability to grasp matters of the heart made any sort of formal "passage" into femininity unnecessary. Nowadays those opportuntities are nearly gone. When we meet as women, it tends to be in high-stress situations - corporate meetings with deadlines, ministry meetings with agendas, PTA meetings with concerns. The home is the only place left for this vital transmission of feminine identity."
I submit that the internet has become another place for this "vital transmission." We can learn how to cook, how to take care of children, how to manage our households, how to clean, how to love our husbands, how to love our God, and any number of other things from watching other women. When we blog, we give a little glimpse into our private lives that I think have become a little TOO private in our society. We need to know that others have struggles, and they need to know the same about us. When we have other capable, loving women we are learning from we are able to be confident in our methods.
This is a post for another day, but I also see it as proof that humans were created for relationship. If we don't have them, we FIND them. In whatever way necessary!
The Total Money Makeover
Now that I'm married, we have a weekly paycheck and no more. But it's steady. Because of how I grew up, that has always been weird.
My dad, of all people, "discovered" Dave Ramsey a few months ago. He now has Nick and my brother-in-law Dave listening to the radio show. This guy has provided more encouragement to us financially, than anything else we've done. And we've done quite a few things to figure out our finances.
Nick and I are currently reading Dave Ramsey's book, "The Total Money Makeover." We have actually never finished a book we started reading together. Last night Nick read to me for 1 1/2 hours. I was shocked! :) We feel like we know how to made good decisions that will help our situation finally. Confidence makes all the difference!
Wednesday, January 3, 2007
Thrift store finds and classified ads
In addition, we got a two-door filing cabinet for $5, with which I will organize the never-ending pile of papers that always somehow ends up on my kitchen counter.
And, I put an ad in the local American Classifieds for the washer and dryer we don't need since our rental has them included, and the desk we don't have space for. Nifty, huh? Anybody need a washer and dryer? They don't match, but they work! :)
Tuesday, January 2, 2007
...two steps back
Hummus
Hummus
--one can of chickpeas (also known as garbanzo beans. I cooked my own, and used 2 cups)
--five tablespoons of tahini (this is basically pureed sesame seeds. Not as weird as you think)
--three tablespoons of olive oil
--the juice of two lemons (I used 4 tablespoons)
--two to four cloves of garlic (4 would make it VERY garlicky!)
--half a tablespoon of sea salt
--1/4 cup of reserved liquid from chickpeas (or water is fine)
Combine in blender or food processor.
Eat with chips or raw vegetables, or spread it on bread and have a sandwich with tomato and avocado. Yum!
Maybe I have just not paid attention, but until recently I didn't cook beans and didn't know if you cook beans the right way, they won't make you sick. Always soak them overnight and drain the water and put fresh water in for cooking, then skim away the froth that forms on top of the water as they cook. That's the gas, and you can get rid of most of it.
Monday, January 1, 2007
Christmas gifts
With that little disclaimer, I took my Christmas money and bought cooking stuff tonight. I feel like an official domesticated dork. I got a food processor (since the old one melted in the dishwasher), a new cutting board, and a colander. Therefore, I decided at 10:30 that I would make hummus in my new food processor, thus the reason I am still up at 12:30, waiting for garbanzo beans to cook. I am a nerd. I'm not even sure we'll like it. I've had it once, I think.
For Christmas at my parent's house, I got a real skillet. A real one, as opposed to the $40 12-piece set we've been using since we got married. If you consider yourself a poor cook and do not have good tools, you should try getting good tools. I'm telling you, I'm amazed at how different it is cooking in this little pan. Speaking of...I'm going to make myself an egg.
Recipies and such
Celebrate with Seasonal Tips & Guilt-Free Recipes
The winter and holiday season can seem like a five- or six-week buffet. But with some simple preparation, many of us can make it through the season without getting any heavier. So eat, drink, and be merry. But most of all, be healthy!
6 Tips for Success
1. Set realistic goals. Expecting to lose weight amongst all the celebrations is probably unrealistic and will make you feel guilty if you don't. Instead, plan to keep your weight and body fat percentage the same. Allow yourself an occasional indulgence, but don't go overboard. Even if you only maintain your present weight and/or body fat percentage, then that's still an accomplishment! Don't get discouraged and quit—just resolve to make a new goal for the new year and move ahead full steam!
2. Eat a low-glycemic-load diet. Eat foods that have a low glycemic load (GL)—such as vegetables, lean proteins, and fiber-rich carbs—which help you stay fuller longer, maintain a smaller rise in blood glucose levels after meals, prolong physical endurance, and keep insulin levels low to burn fat more efficiently and help you lose weight. Research suggests that consumption of high-GL foods (sweets, simple carbs, processed foods, sodas) may promote obesity by causing you to eat more. Other evidence suggests that following a diet comprised of primarily low-GL foods may be important in the treatment and prevention of chronic diseases. So stick to low-GL foods for high yields in health!
3. Eat frequent, small meals. It's good advice year round, but especially during party season. Don't go to a party or event on an empty stomach. The trick is to continue eating the recommended six small meals a day so you never get to the state of hunger that wears down your resistance. Before going out, have a small meal or healthy snack that includes protein, which satisfies hunger and helps you eat less.
4. Increase your activity. In addition to lifting your spirits, exercise is an important part of a healthy lifestyle program. Even if your eating habits stray (just a little), you can still stay on the track to better health by expanding your current exercise routine to burn those extra calories.
5. Plan your indulgences wisely. If you are going to give into temptation, do so with thought. Don't waste your calories on foods you don't really love. Scope out the scene, ID the food you can't live without and go for it (ideally a small portion). Following are some common buffet items that you can feel good about (next to your favorite indulgence):
Veggies (skip the dip) Sliced turkey & chicken
Smoked salmon Hummus and pita bread
Salsa Mixed greens (no dressing)
Bean salad Lean roasted lamb or beef
Fruit (berries, melons) Black-eyed peas
Fresh shellfish Nuts (not candied)
Sweet potatoes (no marshmallows) Green bean casserole (w/o fried onions)
Brown rice Lettuce wraps
Guacamole Chicken fajita meat & veggies
6. Relax and enjoy. Stress management is an important part of a healthy lifestyle. Don't let the holidays run you down or stress you out. Simplify traditions, watch your commitments and don't get caught up in the rush. Make time to enjoy the season's sights, sounds, and flavors!
Creating Non-Guilty Taste Pleasures
Try these great recipes to make a part of your winter traditions or everyday meals. They'll also make a great addition to the gatherings you attend. Savor the flavor without the guilt!
Warm Mushroom Salad Serves 6
1 tbsp. olive oil 1/2 cup water
1/2 pound mushrooms 1 pinch salt
3 cloves minced garlic 1 pinch fresh ground pepper
1 tsp. each, basil & marjoram 1 Tbsp. fresh chopped parsley or fresh coriander (cilantro)
1 medium tomato, diced
3 Tbsp. lemon juice
Heat oil on low in a frying pan, then gently sauté the mushrooms for 2-3 minutes. Do not overcook.
Sprinkle in garlic and basil, then toss the mixture for a minute or two so that mushrooms are well coated. Add the tomato, lemon juice, water, salt, and pepper. Stir together and cook until the tomato softens. Remove from heat and let cool. Garnish with chopped herbs.
Spaghetti Squash Parmesan Serves 6-8
1 spaghetti squash, cut in half 1 Tbsp. lemon juice
1 cup chopped fresh tomato (substitute canned if necessary) 1 tsp. each, basil & oregano
1/3 cup sliced green onions Salt and pepper to taste
4 Tbsp. grated Parmesan cheese
Place the squash, cut side down, on a greased cookie sheet. Bake at 350o for about 30-45 minutes or until a knife pierces the skin without resistance. Allow the squash to cool and scoop out and discard the seeds. Using a fork, scrape the flesh into strands. In a Dutch oven or large pot, add tomatoes, green onions, Parmesan, lemon juice, basil, oregano, salt and pepper. Toss well to coat with sauce. Cook 1 minute over medium-high heat to heat through.
Pumpkin Custard Serves 4
2 eggs 1/2 tsp ginger
1/2 cup agave syrup 1/4 tsp. nutmeg
1 1/2 cups canned or pureed pumpkin 1/8 tsp. ground cloves
1 tsp cinnamon 1/8 tsp. salt
1/2 tsp ginger Butter
Butter a shallow, 1 1/2 quart baking dish. In a medium mixing bowl, mix eggs, syrup, and 1 1/2 cups pumpkin. Slowly mix in milk. In a separate medium bowl, mix spices. Add liquid mixture to spice mixture and pour into prepared baking dish. Set dish in a large baking pan. Add hot water to the large pan to a depth of about 1 inch. It should come about halfway up the side of the inner baking dish. Bake for about 50 minutes at 325° or until custard is set and a knife inserted near the center comes out clean. Cool completely before serving; can be covered and refrigerated overnight.
Deviled Eggs Yields 12
6 large boiled eggs
3-4 Tbsp. roasted tomato hummus
Paprika (optional)
To boil eggs, place eggs in enough cold water to cover completely, bring to a rolling boil over high heat. Reduce heat to a lower MEDIUM BOIL and cook an additional 12 minutes. Promptly chill eggs so yolks stay bright yellow. Remove shells from eggs, and halve lengthwise with a knife. Carefully remove the yolks, and place in a medium bowl. Mash yolks with a fork and add tomato hummus. Very carefully spoon mixture back into the egg white halves. Garnish with a light sprinkling of paprika.
Fruit Salad Serves 6
1 large bag of frozen mangoes (or 3 fresh mangoes) Other fruit of choice
3 kiwis, sliced 1/2 cup chopped nuts (e.g., walnuts)
2 large oranges, divided into sections 1/2 cup plain yogurt
1/2 to 1 pint fresh berries (if available) Stevia or agave syrup (optional)
Defrost bag of frozen mangoes or cut up fresh mangoes and put in a pretty bowl for serving. Add kiwi fruits, oranges, and fresh berries. (Frozen berries will lose their shape and are not advised. Pomegranate berries add beautiful color and are a healthy addition.) You may add any other acceptable fruit of choice. Top with chopped nuts yogurt. Gently stir to mix. If the taste it too tart, add a sprinkle of stevia or mix in some agave syrup.
Veggie Egg Wrap Serves 6
1 small onion, chopped 6 eggs
2 Tsp. olive oil 1/2 cup grated part skim mozzarella
3/4 cup leftover veggies of choice (mushrooms, spinach, zucchini, bell peppers) 6 low carb tortillas
Sauté onion in 1 tsp. olive oil, stirring until softened. Add veggies and mix until warm. Remove from pan. Add 1 tsp. more olive oil and scramble eggs with cheese until almost done. Stir in veggies and continue to cook until done. Fill tortillas with egg scramble and serve immediately.
Green Beans Almondine Serves 4
10 oz. pkg frozen French style green beans 1 Tbsp. olive oil
1 small onion, diced 1/3 cup sliced almonds
Steam green beans for about 10-15 minutes, or until softened. In a separate pan, sauté onion in olive oil. When onion is softened, add almonds and continue to sauté until just beginning to brown slightly. Add cooked green beans and stir to mix well. Serve immediately.
Sweet Potato Delight Serves 8
1 large sweet potato or yam (peeled and cut into small pieces) 1/4 tsp. nutmeg
1 small Butternut squash (peeled and cut into small pieces) Lowfat milk, soy milk or almond milk
1 tsp. cinnamon Sliced almonds & nutmeg for garnish
1/2 tsp. ginger
Steam sweet potato or yam and butternut squash together until soft. Blend in a food processor (a blender will not do the job) with spices. While processing, slowly add enough milk to make the consistency slightly looser than mashed potatoes. Place the mixture in an ovenproof dish, about 1 1/2 Qt. (You can make ahead up to this point and store in refrigerator until ready to bake and eat.) Sprinkle nutmeg and sliced almonds on top as a garnish and bake at 350o for about 15 minutes.
Frittata Serves 6
1 medium onion, diced Several fresh basil leaves (or 1 tsp. dried)
1 Tbsp. olive oil 3 Tbsp. grated parmesan cheese
1/2 red bell pepper, diced 1 avocado, sliced in wedges
1 cup mushrooms, diced Cherry tomatoes, halved
8 eggs
Preheat broiler. Sauté onion in olive oil in a 12-inch ovenproof nonstick skillet over moderate heat, stirring, until softened. Add red bell pepper and mushrooms and continue to sauté. In a medium bowl, mix eggs with basil. When vegetables are nicely acquainted, pour egg mixture into skillet and cook, lifting up cooked egg around edge using a spatula to let as much raw egg as possible flow underneath, until edge is set, about 2 minutes (top and center will still be very loose). Sprinkle parmesan cheese evenly over top. Broil frittata about 6 inches from heat until set, slightly puffed, and golden, 2 to 2 1/2 minutes. Cool frittata 5 minutes, then loosen edge with a clean spatula and slide onto a large plate. Garnish with wedges of avocado and cherry tomatoes cut in half. Cut into wedges.
Breakfast with Michelle
Nick's sister Michelle drove down from Boulder to see us today. She brought me a plant. Isn't it pretty? She and Nick watched the Nebraska game. We had eggs, turkey sausage, gluten free cranberry orange muffins, grapefruit and orange juice. The girls played and made us laugh.
After the girls went to take a nap, we really got to talk some. She's 40 years old, never been married, always wanted to be. She has a job for a massive company that is a continual struggle. Boulder is a ridiculously expensive city to live in. She's planning a major life change - moving back to Nebraska, finding a new job, and trying to adopt a child. This is the first we had heard of it. She really has nothing to lose and everything to gain.
Several thoughts cross my mind. First, what an adventure to dream about! I have found you can handle just about anything if you have hope. If there are dreams of a better day, a possibility for happiness and joy down the road, dark places aren't so bad. Second, how blessed I am! My life is full of people to love and people who love me. I always had big dreams of doing something grand with my life. I dreamed of being famous, of changing the world. Maybe I still will, who knows? For right now, I'm pretty grateful for my husband who is gentle and kind, and my girls who make my life so full of joy.
Finances can be hard, relationships can be tricky, health can be somewhat elusive, and all of my dreams have yet to come true. But, the bottom line is we're blessed!




