Thursday, April 12, 2007

Things that make me smile

-Helping Hannah blow out her birthday candles last night.
-Laying in bed with Audrey next to me, and having her very earnestly communicate whatever "Ba Ba Ba Da Da Da" means.
-Laying Hannah down for a nap and telling her it's naptime, and her responding "Hmm??"
-Watching Hannah push her new doll stroller around for hours
-Walking into the girls room after naps and finding Audrey pulled up to her knees at the side of her crib ("You're too little to do that yet!")

These things are priceless, I'm tellin' ya.

Wednesday, April 11, 2007

Thoughts from Easter

I have been trying all week to write something intelligent and meaningful about Easter. All I can come up with is the type of blog that I, personally, would skim over because it said nothing I haven't already heard a million times. Maybe short thoughts will work better.

Actual Spiritual Thoughts:
1. My Easter always revolves around The Thorn production at New Life, and family get-togethers.
2. I used to be IN The Thorn every year. That was B.C. (Before Children)
3. Seeing the passion over and over again always seemed to help it sink in.
4. I miss having that time to think about it. My friend Kim who is Catholic blogged about the three hours of silence they observe on Good Friday. Why don't we all do that?
5. There was NO OTHER WAY for us to be reconciled to God, except for Christ to endure what He did. He didn't want to do it, but He knew he had to, so He did. I'm so grateful.

Related Rather Un-Spiritual Thoughts:
1. Most old people become really funny. Can we grow older without becoming stubborn and unhappy? I hope so.
2. Hannah on Peeps is not very fun.
3. My siblings and parents are great. We had one of the best get-togethers I can remember.
4. When will Colorado quit pretending it is winter in April?
5. My mom made an awesome gluten-free meal. Wow, was that nice.
6. My mom and sisters and I are starting a business. It's gonna be cool. Details to follow.

Hope you had a great Easter

Monday, April 9, 2007

"Diet"

People give me a hard time all the time about how easily I lose weight. When somebody says to me, "I hate you! You just had a baby and look how skinny you are!" I am torn. Part of me wants to say, "I work so hard for this, though! How dare you be jealous of me!" Another part of me feels so much compassion that I want to cry.

Weight is such a huge issue. Yes, I have always been a skinny person. Some of it is genes, but if you saw certain extended family members, you would understand that is not all of it. I think most of what causes families to be skinny together, are the eating habits they pass on to each other.

Two things this takes: time, and money. It's not quick to eat right, but the time involved requires balance in life - something we need anyway. When it takes me an hour to make dinner, I have time to interact with my family in the kitchen and think about stuff and keep my countertops and refrigerator clean. When we mindfully choose to spend a big portion of our income on healthy food, it keeps our attention there. I feel like making sacrifices in these two areas sorts out other life issues before they even become issues.

The last thing being "I hate you" skinny takes, is knowledge. The fact is, the old "don't eat fat, live on carbs" approach doesn't work. Neither does just not eating. I will guarantee you, if you are eating well and still not losing weight, you are probably allergic to something you eat regularly. There are lots of different opinions about losing weight, but you can always tell which ones work and which don't. The ones that make people miserable and unable to stick with it long term don't work - even if people lose weight on them. If you can't stick with it, it doesn't work. Right?

I read this article today, and although I don't agree with all of it, the general idea is right on. I personally eat more protein even than this diet, with hardly ever going more than four hours without protein and carbs. Eat often - your metabolism needs it.

Also, cheating occasionally is totally FINE. If you NEED chocolate, go to the store and buy a bar of really good chocolate, for when you have to have it. If you spend money on it, you won't eat it nonstop, and it will be more satisfying anyway. I eat a ton of stuff I don't usually when we go to holiday meals and stuff. I'm sick for a couple days afterward, but it's usually worth it. Just don't eat like that every day. The weight will melt off.

Lastly, food is a major personal thing. I long ago lost any sense of privacy about what I eat and how much because the only way to control my seizures was to tell people about everything I ate. So, another piece of advice I have is make yourself accountable. This is the best part of seeing a nutritionist. You are required to keep a journal of everything you eat. No more snacks you're ashamed of.

Now, go get yourself some raw nuts and a piece of fruit.

Tuesday, April 3, 2007

Sunblock, Vitamin D and Cancer

We're told all the time to slather our kids and ourselves in sunblock to avoid certain death from skin cancer. I have not done a ton of research on this, so take it with a grain of salt, but this article and the video it links to are very interesting contradictory information. Think about it - a hundred years ago they had no sunblock. They lived in the sun, working farms, etc. They didn't die from cancers - they died from farm accidents or illnesses like fevers. What's the deal with that?

Now, obviously there is some risk of TOO much sun. We don't want heatstroke and we don't want peeling and blistering sunburns. That would just be stupid. On the other hand, I personally don't want to wear makeup that has sunblock every day or cover my kids in it every time they step outside. We have to have some exposed skin that receives sunshine on it so that our bodies can produce vitamin D. Seriously, it's hard enough to get enough sun here in Colorado because of the cold...

Monday, April 2, 2007

Really need to get off the computer...

Random
Do you have any pets?3 fish
What color shirt are you wearing?black
Name three things that are physically close to you:baby rattle, dish rag, phone
What is the last book you read?Fight Like a Girl by Lisa Bevere - it's a good one
Are you or were you a good student?yes
What's your favorite sport?yuck
Do you enjoy sleeping late?very much
What's the weather like right now?windy and sunny
Who tells the best jokes?David Letterman, occasionally
What was the last thing you dreamed about?never remember
Do you drive? If so, have you ever crashed?Yes, and yes.
Do you believe in karma?No
Do you believe in luck?No
Do you like your eggs scrambled or sunny side up?over medium
Do you collect anything? If so, what?books
Are you proud of yourself?yes, usually. i do a pretty good job.
Are you reliable?i was before i had kids!
Have you ever given money to a bum?yes
What's your favorite food?avocado is a current favorite. i also LOVE peaches.
Have you ever had a secret admirer?many
Do you like the smell of gasoline?no
Do like to draw?i'm terrible
What's your favorite invention?the internet
Is your room messy?it's not bad
What do you like better: oranges or apples?apples. oranges make my mouth hurt
Do you give in easily?never
Are you a good guesser?not really
Can you read other people's expressions?yes, to a fault
Are you a bully?i could be if i wasn't so afraid of being one
Do you have a job?yes, taking care of my kids. and teaching piano
What time did you wake up this morning?uh...which time? 3am, 7am, or 9am?
What did you eat for breakfast this morning?toast with almond butter
When was the last time you showered?a couple hours ago
What do you plan on doing tomorrow?teaching piano lessons
What's your favorite day of the week and why?probably Sunday. I love my church
Do you have any nicknames?Sara Kay
Have you ever been scuba diving?no. snorkeling though.
What's your least favorite color?not a big fan of blue
Is there someone you have been constantly thinking about? If yes, who?have a couple of friends going through tough stuff that i pray for a lot
Would you ever go skydiving?probably not now that i have kids
What toothpaste do you use?don't ask
Do you enjoy challenges?yes
What's the worst injury you have had?probably something following a seizure
What's the last movie you saw?A Night with the King.
What do you want to know about the future?in reality? nothing. if i knew i would try to control it.
What does your last text message say?I sent you an email. I'm at work so I can't talk. Sorry.
Who was the last person you spoke over the phone to?Somebody at US airways
What's your favorite school subject?English
What's your least favorite school subject?Math
Would you rather have money or love?love...but money is nice if i can have it too
What is your dream vacation?a private beach
What is your favorite animal?cat
Do you miss anyone right now?Nick
What's the last sporting event you watched?we watched a little baseball last night
Do you need to do laundry?most definitely
Do you listen to the radio?not too much since i got an mp3 player
Where were you when 9/11 happened?sleeping
What do you do when vending machines steal your money?grumble. then find somebody to give it back to me.
Have you ever caught a butterfly?yes
What color are your bed sheets?kinda purplish-brownish
What's your ringtone?i don't have any cool ones
Who was the last person to make you laugh?Hannah
Do you have any obsessions right now?my kids and husband would probably qualify
Do you like things that glow in the dark?uh...ok?
What's your favorite fruity scent?gross.
Do you watch cartoons?Finding Nemo. Every day.
Have you ever sat on a roof?yes, but it's been a while
Have you ever been to a different country?Germany and Switzerland
Name three things in the world you dislike:people who tailgate, bad smells, cold
Name three people in the world you dislike:no thanks
Has a rumor even been spread about you?probably
Do you like sushi?don't consider myself very knowledgable about it, but what i've had isn't bad
Do you believe in magic?well...the spirit world anyway.
Do you hold grudges?no. that's too hard.
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FUN!

No kidding, this was my conversation with almost two-year-old Hannah yesterday.

Hannah: (Running up to me) FUN!
Me: Are you having fun?
Hannah: Uh-huh! (Runs away)

I laughed.

Friday, March 30, 2007

Ponderings

I have always wanted to be a worship leader. For as long as I can remember, I have played piano and sung at the top of my lungs. When I was a child, I distinctly remember imagining audiences of thousands sitting around my living room so I could perform for them.

I was one of the star performers in the yearly children's musicals we did for our church of 300. My Gramma was in a singing group that had me sing the solo for their Christmas show one year. As a teenager I was involved in "Summer Funner Theater" here. It was basically a VBS with a show at the end, but every one required a lead...guess who did that? I also played keyboards and sang with the youth worship band every Sunday. Straight out of high school I had my job with the worship ministry and began singing on mics and playing keys on occasion. One weekend all the usual soloists were out, and I ended up with the special music. I sang Carolyn Arends'"Seize the Day" and had people come up to me talking about it for literally 6 months. When I went to Bible school I played with the worship band that toured. When I was at ORU I got more in scholarship money than any other pianist I knew, with the exception of the two prodigies who probably will go on to be concert performers. I'm a very good accompanist. At my church in Tulsa I played very frequently with the worship band, most weekends. I was going to play keys on their worship recording.

(I feel like Paul must have, recording all his qualifications and then saying, "Whatever was to my credit I now consider loss for the sake of Christ..." Bear with me here, folks.)

Then, it all stopped. In January, after two years at ORU, I just didn't have the money anymore. Nick and I were engaged and going to be married that summer. He still had a semester of school left. I was over two years from graduating. With a heavy heart, I called and quit everything I was committed to, and moved home. That was 2004. I think I've played for worship twice since then, and had a brief stint as the New Life choir accompanist. I also played for the youth choir for a year. But the thing that is my heart is worship ministry, and that has seemed to be on hold.

I've written about this some already over the past several weeks, because it has been on my mind a lot. I have children now, and I feel very strongly about staying home with them and being there to raise them. Nobody else can do my job. Why would God call somebody to worship ministry, and I was positive He had, and then bless them with children so they are unable to fulfill the first calling? I have always seen the two callings as separate.

A couple weeks ago I was finishing up the Bible Study I've been working through, and it was encouraging me to write a personal mission statement. I have always struggled with this, because my two missions were, in my mind, so mutually exclusive. How can children and worship ministry work together? Lack of distraction is so deeply ingrained in the way worship ministry should be done, and children are, by nature, distracting. I stopped reading and said to God, "How can I do that? I've tried." What I heard was, "Why are they separate?"


Seems simple maybe, but it has been a revelation to me. If my "calling" in this world is to encourage and exhort others to worship God, then that starts with my own children. Who in the world can I influence more in that area than my own children? This filters down into every area of life - encouraging them to live righteous lives so they have clear consciences, teaching them social skills so they can live in healthy relationships, even feeding them good food so their bodies are strong can fall under helping them to worship more effectively. I may not be able to get on stage with a band right now, but I can certainly create an atmosphere of worship in my home.

I think this is a message that most stay-at-home moms probably need. It's easy to lose your identity in staying at home. But, for most people there is something in the world that makes you passionate and energized. Maybe it is your kids, but most people I think need something more than that if they're honest with themselves. Most of us who stay home have skills and passions we lay aside in favor of raising our children ourselves, but that doesn't mean those cease to be part of who we are, it just means we don't get the recognition we used to. Maybe people don't know me everywhere I go anymore, but maybe I'm raising the next Darlene Zscech. Or maybe my time is yet to come again, and I will face it with a greater maturity, humility and understanding than I ever could have before my kids. Either way, nothing is on hold around here anymore.

Thursday, March 29, 2007

Entertainment for a Thursday afternoon

This post is one of the funniest blogs I've read in a quite a while. I don't have this issue yet with my own kids, but I clearly remember having these arguments with siblings. The other one Holly came up with that wasn't mentioned was, "Mom! She's looking out my window!" Remember that, Holly?

Wednesday, March 21, 2007

Hannah at the library


library, originally uploaded by sakalomi.

I think I've written before about my memories of the library. Somehow my incredible mother managed to take 5 kids to the library at least once a month. I vividly remember her telling us we could each get 10 books. I don't have a clue how she got 5 kids under 11 and 50+ books OUT of the library, but she did. I have loved books ever since. I read at 4 and was known to devour entire books in one sitting in late elementary school. I read several hours a day sometimes.

It was with those memories putting a smile on my face, that I took Hannah and Audrey to the library today. We had a great time. Hannah and I picked out three books to read. She carried them herself all the way from the children's section to the check out line. Then, when she saw we had to wait in line, she plopped down on the floor in the middle of everything, and began to look at her books. I still can't wipe the smile off my face.

I like lentil soup...lentil soup?

All evening I've been singing a song that Ernie and Bert sing.

Bert: I like lentil soup
Ernie: Lentil soup?
Bert: Yes, I do...
Ernie: I don't really like any of those things...but I...like...you!

I made lentil soup for dinner tonight. It was yummy, and Hannah even ate it. I was prepared to make her something different! Lentils are pretty cool little things. 28% of your daily fiber and 11g of protein in one serving.

I've been seeing them everywhere lately. Have you ever noticed that there are food fads? Like, sun-dried tomatoes and asiago cheese...that is SO three years ago! Anyway, I decided to try it. This recipe is really good.

The changes I made are:
Only one large onion - we're not huge onion people
One 14oz can of tomatoes - we're not huge tomato people either, and I didn't have a big can. :)
A splash of apple cider vinegar instead of the wine - I still don't have a clue how to buy wine, although I'm not opposed to cooking with it.
One cup of COOKED brown rice - add right before serving. Whole grains will make it a complete protein also. The recipe suggests adding cheese which would do the same thing and be pretty tasty, but it sure would make us all sick!

Try it - you'll like it!

Tuesday, March 20, 2007

When I grow up

I want to write like this.

Oh Boy...

Swiped this from SaraW. Couldn't resist.

Ghostbusters Theme Song: In List Format

* Things I ain't afraid of:
o no ghost
* Strange things in the neighborhood (partial list):
o seeing things running through head
o invisible man sleeping in bed
* Things that make me feel good:
o bustin'
* Who you gonna call:
o Ghostbusters
o I can't hear you
o Louder

Tuesday, March 13, 2007

Elmo

Hannah has a very special relationship with Elmo. I have no idea what started this, but at this point it has developed into radar. She can find any Elmo in a 50 foot wide area. I came across this today. There's one birthday present down...

Monday, March 12, 2007

Slowing down

The temperature hit about 70 degrees here today. It was incredible.

Although it took us literally all day to get ready, at 3:00 I put Hannah and Audrey in the stroller, and took them to the park. To do this, I first have to push them up the biggest hill around here. This hill has deterred me several times when I have considered heading to the park. But today, with the sunshine and the warm breeze, it didn't seem bad at all. Once we got there, Hannah wanted to swing and I put Audrey in one of the baby swings as well. There were my two little girls, just smiling and giggling and enjoying the sunshine, swinging side-by-side.

We must have been quite a scene, because Hannah still has a little trouble walking on the playground sand, and I had Audrey on my hip. While holding Audrey, I helped Hannah climb up the steps and go down the slide. Multiple times, of course.

Nick has always been impressed at what I can pull off without help. My reply to him has always been, "A determined woman can do many things." I don't remember where I got that, but I doubt it's original. Determination has allowed me to move furniture and work long hours and stay home with two children under 2.

I'm beginning to discover something else that raising children requires, in addition to determination - TIME. Gone are the days when running errands is a quick process. Grocery shopping is most definitely a scene for us. I get out, put on the Baby Bjorn, put Audrey in it, then get Hannah out (which usually involves putting her shoes and socks back on while avoiding hitting Audrey's head on anything), hold Hannah's hand while we walk in or carry her on my hip WITH Audrey in the carrier. Once inside, Hannah goes in the cart. Lots of people have encouraged me to leave errand running to daddy - or to go when he can watch the kids. Some people I know even leave their kids with a babysitter while running errands. I don't fault them.

When I was a kid, we did everything with my mom. I can't imagine what it looked like for her to bring 5 children under 11 into the grocery store, but we did it every week. Everywhere we went - stores, restaurants, church - people constantly remarked how well-behaved we all were. We weren't the ones running the aisles with mom yelling and trying to keep us corralled. We sat in or walked next to the cart, sometimes begging for things, but we knew what was expected of us. This is what I want for my kids.

I think my point is this - it takes forever to do stuff, ANYTHING, with kids. But I want to involve them in normal life. It's becoming less about how many tasks I can accomplish in a day, and more about how I connected and trained my kids. This is tough for someone who has always prided herself on her efficiency. Kids don't care at all how efficient you are. I could finish all my errands in an hour before I had kids, now it takes me all week, but when Hannah looks up at me from her carseat and says, "Walk?" I love that I can slow down, realize the toddling speed at which she is able to walk will be fine, and say "Okay, you can walk." That grin is worth it.

Saturday, March 10, 2007

It's raining

I can't believe it! I cannot even express how ready I am for spring after about 3 months straight of snow. I've lived here for 15 years, and I do not remember a winter like this. Rain feels wonderful. Nick took Hannah out in it today and she absolutely loved it too.

I got my hair colored today. It's blond. I haven't been blond in a long time. I don't think Nick likes it much, but he's afraid to say so. It's definitely different.

Drew Barrymore is on Saturday Night Live. I like her. She always seems happy. There's a lot to be said for being comfortable in your own skin. She seems to be.

Nick is currently sound asleep on the couch.

I really should go to bed since we lose an hour tonight. I don't wanna.

We're going to Nebraska to visit Nick's family and take part in our niece Becca's baptism next weekend. We haven't seen them in a long time, and the change of scenery will be really nice. The girls also get to meet Nick's grandma for the first time. She lives in Ord, Nebraska. It's a happenin' place.

OK, guess I'll quit procrastinating and get ready for bed.

Thursday, March 8, 2007

C-sections

I've posted too much of this kind of thing lately - I'm starting to get bored with them. :) I really believe this information is important though. I had a c-section with Hannah, but would never do it again unless I had another baby whose life was in danger like hers was. Women who choose to deliver their babies that way baffle me, frankly. Not only do you have a newborn, but you've just had major surgery as well! I had what the midwife said was a rather painful, difficult homebirth with Audrey, but it would choose that a hundred times over before having even one c-section. Plus, as this article talks about, the risks multiply many times over with a c-section. It's not the perfectly safe procedure people want to think it is! Ok, I'm done now.

Tuesday, March 6, 2007

Elderberry and flu

This is something fairly new to me, but I got an email from an email list about it today. Here's an article about how Elderberry can help you recover from the flu within two to three days. I also gave it to Hannah when she woke up with what sounded like croup one morning. She never coughed like that again - it was gone by the next night. What I have cost about $20, but seems well worth getting to have on hand if someone in your house gets the flu!

And while I'm on the subject, this article about Tamiflu and flu vaccines sums up what I believe about those. Wash hands, carry wipes in the car to use after going places, if you do get sick use Oscillococcinum and elderberry as soon as you feel it come on. These are safe even for very little kids at 1/3 the adult dose.

OK. Done with my soapbox for the day.

Thursday, March 1, 2007

Processing

I'm currently working through the Bible study called, "Restore My Heart" by Denise Glenn. I got behind when Hannah was sick, and while trying to get caught up last night came across this quote:

"Letting Jesus change you with His word and take you where He wants you to go is the great adventure of this life."

I though it rather profound.

I was one of those kids who never doubted what God was going to do in the world through me. As an 18 year old, straight out of high school, I landed a job as the worship ministry secretary for Woodmen Valley Chapel. At the time, the church was about 5,000 people. The worship ministry had a database of over 200 volunteers as well as a full time staff of 5. I was the only administrative help for the department. I was in WAY over my head. But even so, they trusted me with the position.

For years, I daydreamed about starting a worship ministry of some kind. One that would send me traveling the world, playing and singing for thousands. Actually, I did do that some. I thought I had found my purpose.

Fast forward a few years. I currently have four private piano students, one of them being my little sister. My days are filled with diapers, laundry and messes. I'm pretty sure it's been just over 3 years since I played consistently with a band. I used to be on stage at least once, if not twice a week. I found so much of my value in that. It was who I was. I still have a heart for worship ministry, but my heart to raise my girls to be Godly women, and to be available for them is so much more passionate. Sometimes I begin to feel that I've left that other life behind for good.

Here's the kicker: my life is not on hold. As long as I continue to allow Jesus to transform me with His word, I'm moving forward. I have never made any decisions that I felt were out of God's will, so therefore this place I find myself must be exactly where I'm supposed to be - no matter what it feels like on some days. And for that matter, even if I had made poor decisions, God has a way of working things out for the good of those who love Him. He promised to do that. I can trust that He will. No need to second guess and wonder and feel left out. My job is simply to stay open to His word and the adventure He has for me.

Joy comes in the morning

So, life's not as bad as I thought. :)

Audrey slept 8 hours straight for the first time last night, the Bible study got postponed because of the snow, Nick worked from home this morning so he did the early morning diaper changes, and it's only 10:30 and Audrey's already napping and Hannah will be ready soon. Plus, the snow is already melting. That makes me happy too. I want it to be spring now!

I think it's great how just when you don't think you can do anymore, you (usually) get a break. :)

Wednesday, February 28, 2007

You're kidding, right?

We can't seem to get life back together these days. Nick and I stayed up late last night watching The Devil Wears Prada, since we hadn't spent real time together in a week. (Pretty fun movie, by the way) I went to sleep at 1:00am. Audrey was up four hours later, slept two more hours, and then stayed up. That makes six hours of sleep for me.

Neither girl would take a nap this afternoon, which meant that by 6pm they were wiped out. They both slept until 8ish. Currently Nick, who doesn't feel good, is sound asleep on the couch and both girls are wide awake no where near ready for bed. It is 10:15. Hannah refused to eat the fish that I made for dinner, so she is currently covered in almond butter and crackers.

Tomorrow morning I'm supposed to go to my second to last meeting of my Bible study and then have the mom's group in the afternoon. I bet you could guess what my house looks like. Hmmmm...

Cloned Foods

Go here to send a letter to the FDA commissioner, saying you oppose cloned foods. Right now, everything is set to allow cloned meat and milk from cloned animals with no labeling even. There will be no way to avoid it. Even the "organic" definition may not be able to keep cloned animal products out. Scary stuff, folks. This is open to public comment until April.

Tuesday, February 27, 2007

Don't you understand that it's nap time?

Our landlord apparently decided it was time to paint our townhouse building, because today a guy showed up to machine sand every single square inch of wood on the building. The neatest part about this? He made it to our next-door neighbors' and our front porch right in the middle of nap time. The things kids have to put up with.

Can we move yet?

Saturday, February 24, 2007

Dictionary Definition

This was too random and stupid to pass up:


Sara --

[adjective]:

Smells like teen spirit



'How will you be defined in the dictionary?' at QuizGalaxy.com

Friday, February 23, 2007

Shopping with the girls

Last night my entire family minus my brothers ended up in Denver at the mall. My mom and sisters and Hannah and I walked around together. It was SO fun. And, I found $10 pants that actually fit. That makes it even better. It's funny how the older I get, the more I appreciate my siblings.

Thursday, February 22, 2007

Interview

If you're interested, here's an interview with Pastor Ross, Jared, Jon, and Glenn at New Life. At the risk of sounding like I'm dropping names, these guys are friends of mine. Their hearts are so great, and the four of them are having a huge impact on the church right now. God is using them to keep the church from falling apart as a result of what happened with Pastor Ted, and they are doing an amazing job. The leadership they are providing is giving the church direction and purpose again, and it is an exciting place to be.

Tuesday, February 20, 2007

I got bored

Basics:
Name:Sara
Date of Birth:June 4, 1980
Birthplace:Fullerton , CA
Current Location:Springs
Eye Color:Hazelish
Hair Color:light brown
Height:5'9 1/4"
Heritage:German/British/Cherokee
Piercings:two in each ear
Tattoos:none
Favourite:
Band/Singer:Uh...this changes frequently. Of all time...probably Coldplay
Song:Couldn't pick one to save my life
Movie:Pride and Prejudice, the new one
Disney Movie:Robin Hood
TV show:What Not to Wear
Color:I really like yellow lately
Food:My chicken stir-fry
Pizza topping:pepperoni
Ice-Cream Flavor:chocolate anything
Drink (alcoholic):banana daquiri
Soda:haven't had one in 10 years
Store:if I could afford it, Banana Republic
Clothing Brand:whatever
Shoe Brand:steve madden
Season:warm
Month:May
Holiday/Festival:Christmas
Flower:anything but mums.
Make-Up Item:never go without concealer
Board game:i hate board games, much to Nick's dismay
This or That
Sunny or rainy:yes
Chocolate or vanilla:chocolate or REAL vanilla, like vanilla bean
Fruit or veggie:yes
Night or day:yes
Sour or sweet:both
Love or money:both
Phone or in person:in person
Looks or personality:both
Coffee or tea:tea
Hot or cold:hot
Your:
Goal for this year:Stability - financial, health, living situation, church, relationships
Most missed memory: Ravencrest or playing with worship bands
Best physical feature:uh...
First thought waking up:where are hannah and audrey?
Hypothetical personality disorder:what does that mean? what i would probably have? how should i know?
Preferred type of plastic surgery:so far i'm fairly satisfied
Sesame street alter ego:big bird
Fairytale alter ego:belle
Most stupid remark:there's been many
Worst crime:not really a crime, but sneaking in after curfew at Ravencrest
Greatest ambition:Personally, to be a great wife and mother. Professionally, to someday be paid to lead worship
Greatest fear:losing a child. can hardly even write it.
Darkest secret:no thanks
Favorite subject:Always was English
Strangest received gift:can't think of any weird ones
Worst habit:picking zits. EW!
Do You:
Smoke:never
Drink:not regularly
Curse:nope, I have a vocabulary
Shower daily:mostly
Like thunderstorms:they're fine
Dance in the rain:occasionally
Sing:yep
Play an instrument:piano
Get along with your parents:yep
Wish on stars:sure
Believe in fate:nope
Believe in love at first sight:it can start that way, then it becomes a choice
Can You:
Drive:not at the moment
Sew:i have learned, but don't have a machine currently
Cook:yep. I'm pretty good I think
Speak another language:not fluently. i know some spanish and some german
Dance:No. I'm horrible.
Sing:Yep
Touch your nose with your tongue:Nope
Whistle:Yes
Curl your tongue:No! Lame, huh?
Have You Ever:
Been Drunk:No
Been Stoned/High:No
Eaten Sushi:Yes
Been in Love:Yes
Skipped school:Not without permission
Made prank calls:Don't think so
Sent someone a love letter:yes
Stolen something:no
Cried yourself to sleep:yes
Other Questions:
What annoys you most in a person?not taking care of themselves
Are you right or left handed?right
What is your bedtime?11ish
Name three things you can't live without:my computer, my piano, and my Bible are awfully nice. not in that order
What is the color of your room?white. lame.
Do you have any siblings?4, all younger
Do you have any pets?not yet
Would you kill someone you hate for a million dollars?no
What is you middle name?Kay
What are you nicknames?Nothing besides Sara Kay
Are you for or against gay marriage?Very against
What are your thoughts on abortion?I think we should educate women on the alternatives. Then, most wouldn't think they even need to do that. Outlawin them won't fix the real problem.
Do you have a crush on anyone?my wonderful husband
Are you afraid of the dark?only when i watch scary movies
How do you want to die?painlessly
What is the largest amount of popsicles that you have eaten on one day?one?
Would you take a bullet for the one you love?yes
What is the last law you’ve broken?speed limits
In a Member of the Opposite Sex:
Hair color:brown
Eye color:brown
Height5'11"
Weightthis is changing right now
Most important physical feature:eyes and hands
Biggest turn-offbad breath. :)
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Pregnant in America

This is one of those propaganda films, but the subject is actually interesting to me. This guy has set out to expose the big money-maker that hospital births are to doctors and hospitals, and talk about how that affects pregnancy and childbirth in America. Hard to tell what it will be like, but it will definitely be interesting...

Autism

This article is a good introduction to what an increasing number of people believe. There is some evidence that a mercury based preservative in some vaccines can cause autism. This preservative was recently removed from all infant vaccines because it was proven harmful, but for some reason it is still used in flu vaccines.

Every parent has to make their own decision about vaccines for their family, but I think it is important to be well-informed about the choice, not just choose it by default.

Monday, February 19, 2007

Protecting our girls

I came across this article tonight. Even the secular community sees it's better to keep our kids from growing up too fast. Interesting.

Discipline

I found this article today. Focus on the Family sends out a "Focus on your child" newsletter that sometimes has really helpful things on it. It seems to me that the key to having well-behaved kids is having well-trained, mature parents. Only a mature person could follow through the way this article suggests. Sometimes I read stuff like this and realize how much I need to grow to be a good mom!

I'm Amazed

So, we put Audrey in a second crib in Hannah's room in the past few days. We had put off doing this for the longest time, because I just couldn't handle the battle I was sure it would be. Just now, I laid both girls in their respective cribs for a nap. There was about 3 minutes of fussing, not even really crying, and then they were both out. They LOVE being in the same room. The first thing Hannah says when I get her out of her bed is, "Audrey?" Why did we keep Audrey in the pack and play in our room? Why didn't we do this months ago?

Sunday, February 18, 2007

Fun night

We had our first all-night stomach flu party with Hannah last night. You haven't lived till you've been puked on by a 2 year old.

Saturday, February 17, 2007

Worn out

We looked at houses to rent today. We actually found one we like a lot. We can't do anything about it until our townhouse gets re-rented though. It's kind of hard. Can't we move next weekend? I know God has all the timing in His hands, but it's still hard to wait. If it's meant to be it'll happen. But it's hard to wait. But it'll be okay. But it's hard.

Hannah has had 102.6 fever for two days. No other symptoms. Audrey has a runny nose but no fever. Little kids shouldn't have to get sick, it's too sad. But, have you ever noticed how beautiful kids are when they have fever? Bright eyes and rosy cheeks... Poor baby! Hopefully she'll feel better tomorrow.

I'm feeling better every day now. Wednesday was my last really tough day. My eye is almost well, and it's a little easier for me to talk. The flashes of light have diminished also. I'm very relieved, and I think I will be feeling almost normal here in the next few days.

Thursday, February 15, 2007

Facts

I can't decide if I making this whole experience seem better or worse than it actually is. In the interest of fair reporting, here are the facts:

-My black eye is looking much better.
-My stomach hurts nonstop. Can't decide if that's because of what Dr P is having me take to straighten it out, or if it's just stress.
-Nick is having a hard time leaving me home alone, so he's way behind on his hours at work.
-If I get stressed at all, I see little flashes of light everywhere.
-I still have a hard time communicating. I forget words and can't translate feelings into words. I also cannot make decisions to save my life right now. I guess that's because of the concussion.
-So many people are praying for us. If you are among them, we are forever grateful. And it is helping!
-We are looking for a ranch style home to move to as soon as our landlord finds someone who wants our townhouse. Less stairs=safer living for me and the girls.
-Nick is going to begin working from home as soon as we can work it out.
-Things will get better.

Monday, February 12, 2007

Just because it looks fun...

Homekeeping Meme

Aprons - Y/N? If yes, what does your favorite look like? Not so far, but someday I might.

Baking - Favorite thing to bake: Eh. Baking is a lot of work right now. I'm good at gluten-free mixes!

Clothesline - Y/N? No, but that sounds nice.

Donuts - Have you ever made them? Nope. Sounds like a stomach ache!

Every day - One homemaking thing you do every day: A load of dishes

Freezer - Do you have a separate deep freeze? Not yet. Someday.

Garbage Disposal - Y/N? Yes.

Handbook - The internet

Ironing - I literally do not remember the last time. We have a clothes steamer, or we throw it in the dryer for a few minutes. We have Nick's shirts laundered occasionally.

Junk Drawer - Y/N? Alas, a necessary evil.

Kitchen - Color and decorating scheme? White with oak cabinets. Not my choice...yet.

Love - What is your favorite part of homemaking? Feeding my family healthy food that makes them strong. And organizing closets. And doing laundry. I really do enjoy those for some reason.

Mop - Y/N? Yes, but not often enough.

Nylons - Only if I hafta...or if it's too cold to wear the skirt I want to wear.

Oven - Do you use the window or open the door to check? Open the door. I don't have a window.

Pizza - What do you put on yours? Pizza is a thing of the past around our house right now.

Quiet - Reading, internet

Recipe card box - Y/N? What does it look like? Yes, it's a black plastic note card box from Walmart.

Style of house - What is the style of your house? Townhouse

Tablecloths and napkins - Y/N? Don't have any tablecloths I like. Napkins - we sometimes do cloth for company, paper for everyday.

Under the kitchen sink - Organized or toxic wasteland? Not bad. Child-proofed!

Vacuum - Preferably twice a week.

Wash - How many loads of laundry do you do per week? 5 or 6?

X's - Do you keep a list of things to do that you cross off? Once the list gets so long that it's making my head spin, yes.

Yard - Y/N? Who does what? Once we have a lawn, Nick will do the mowing. I do the flowers/gardening.

Zzz's - What is your last homemaking task before going to bed? Start the dishwasher/pick up the living room.

Wow. I'm not as domestic as I thought I was!

Saturday, February 10, 2007

Recovering

What a week this has been. When I had the seizure on Sunday, I was in our kitchen. I fell and hit the floor. Hard. I'm nursing a nice black eye and chin, as well as a black and blue right knee and hip. My tongue is also bruised and swollen. Five days later, I can finally eat without pain and I don't slur when I talk. I'm able to put makeup on my face to tone down the purple discoloration, but it is still very visible. This was just a tough experience all around.

We went to see Dr. P today. It was a rather somber visit. To make a long story short, my digestion gets all out of whack very easily. It always has. Any small amount of stress and I just basically quit digesting. It has been off for quite a while at this point...maybe a couple years since I really felt great. The wormwood I was on was to try to fix this, but instead it overwhelmed my system and triggered a seizure.

Events I have been through in the past three years without having a seizure:
-My own wedding and most of the planning of it (my last seizure was 3 months before our wedding, when I was in the airport flying back to Tulsa alone to visit Nick. I had gotten up at 4am.)
-FOUR moves, one of them being out of my parent's house for the last time
-Our honeymoon in Cancun
-My pregnancy with Hannah
-My c-section with Hannah
-My pregnancy with Audrey that started when Hannah was 8 months old
-My homebirth with Audrey
-This past summer, with landlord issues, a homebirth, and a move 4 days postpartum all at once

Any one of those could/should have triggered a seizure, seeing as how they are usually brought on by stress and lack of sleep. At this point, each one of those events is an extra measure of confidence.

So, based on all that, our plan is for Nick to begin working from home starting immediately. Thankfully, he works for my parents. He can do that. As soon as our landlord can re-rent our townhouse, we are going to move to a ranch-style house that will require very little going up and down stairs, just to be safe. And, most importantly, I'm on a new regimen to finally get my digestion under control. We've looked into medication some, but I'm not ready to quit breastfeeding, and Audrey getting that medication in her system can even cause learning disabilities. No thanks! Plus, what we're doing seems to be working well except for this little blip...

I most likely have a concussion, so if I'm a little spacey over the next few weeks, don't be weirded out. :) I feel a little like I have static in my head, but I'm looking forward to going back to my normal schedule as I'm able. I'm very grateful that any damage I have is temporary, and my babies are safe.

If you read all this, thanks for your concern and prayers for me and us.

Tuesday, February 6, 2007

Upon further thought

I don't see any way that seizure could have been caused by anything but the wormwood. I have spent most of the evening doing research. EVERYBODY says that is a problem. Several things point to it:
-I have never before had a seizure:
a.in the evening
b.while NOT on my period
c.without being sleep-deprived
d.without eating junk or not eating often enough
e.while not in the middle of a major life change (going to school, etc.)
-This seizure seems to have been stronger than the ones in the past. I actually broke blood vessels in my face during it. That has never happened.
-I had just increased my dose of the wormwood on Saturday, from 1-2/day to 3/day.
-I also had a little bit of sage in a meatloaf I made for dinner that night. The reading I did today says people with seizure disorders should avoid sage altogether.
-I have had two completely healthy pregnancies. Pregnancy is notorious for bringing on seizures in people susceptible. I didn't have one.
-I had JUST taken my pills when it happened, including the one in question.

It's just too weird. I'm going to see Dr. P on Saturday. We'll talk with him and see if he agrees. Based on the fact that it's been 3 years since the last one, and this didn't line up with the rest, it currently doesn't make sense to us for me to go on medication and endure the side effects and the cost.

We are still thinking that moving to a single-floor living situation would be more ideal and provide a little more safety, just in case. However, breaking our lease comes with another host of problems. Anybody want to take over our lease? $830 a month...it's a nice place!

We're very encouraged tonight, Nick and I. It still will be maybe a couple weeks before I don't look like I was beaten. It's pretty bad, folks. But, if we have just learned a little more about what will keep me and my family safe, it'll be okay.

Update

So, I'm feeling a little better physically today. My mouth is starting to heal up. Every time I have one of these I bite my tongue pretty badly and it swells up and makes it hard to talk or even eat. I found an article online that said that a supplement I was taking can lower the seizure threshold. That makes me wonder.... Every time before, there has been an easily identifiable reason for the seizure. Worth looking into. Even though it's been 10 years since I was on meds, it appears that the same ones are still what is widely recommended, especially while breastfeeding, because there has been time to test them and insure their safety. Yeah. Don't like that so much. Those side effects are NASTY.

For right now, I'm just trying to concentrate on getting well, and we are spending our days at my parents' house so I don't have to be alone with the girls at home. Possiblities we are looking at include medication, finding a house or at least a property with two houses to share with my parents so they are close by to help, just us moving so we will no longer have a long steep flight of stairs, Nick working from home, and others. BUT! Maybe this was just a freak thing because of that wormwood I was taking for an intestinal problem, who knows? How can we know?

The worst part is the unanswered questions...

Monday, February 5, 2007

Sometimes life is tough...

Last night I had another seizure. This is the 6th one since I was 14 years old. This has been a long road, but to make a long story short, I was on medication for a while, had a hard time tolerating the side effects, found Dr. P and began treating it nutritionally, had success unless I cheated on the diet, and now I've had another seizure even when I'm following the diet. This is a major problem because it means I will probably have to go back to using medication to control them. I cannot, obviously, be having seizures when I'm home alone taking care of children. There is a whole host of complications involved with medication and breastfeeding, and particularly getting pregnant and having more children, which we want. I know God has a purpose, but honestly, right now I'm devastated. I thought I had found something that works without the added problems.

I fell on the kitchen floor and banged my cheek bone and chin up pretty badly, and I look like somebody hit me. I also bit up my tongue and all my muscles are sore. I'm really hurting. Please pray for strength and wisdom for us in this time.

Sunday, February 4, 2007

This is a pretty good one...

You know the Bible 100%!
 

Wow! You are awesome! You are a true Biblical scholar, not just a hearer but a personal reader! The books, the characters, the events, the verses - you know it all! You are fantastic!

Ultimate Bible Quiz
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Wednesday, January 31, 2007

Like we needed proof...

But, you need to see this show on the history channel. I watched it from 6-8am this morning. If you know me, you'll know it had to be good. :)

I usually am not a huge fan of history channel stuff that attempts to prove or disprove Biblical accounts. This is the best I've ever seen. The show follows an explorer/researcher through his pursuit to confirm that the Exodus of the Bible was a real, historical event. The evidence he found gave me chills. I have to say that seeing this kind of thing helps my faith grow. I'm recording it for Nick later today...

Tuesday, January 30, 2007

My Favorite Dinner


Chicken Stir Fry, originally uploaded by sakalomi.

Nick found out he is allergic to chicken. Yes, it's weird. How can you be allergic to chicken? But, he is. He also had to work late tonight. Guess what I made?

Okay, so it's not terribly photogenic, but this is my favorite dinner of all. I lived on this stuff while I was in college. I'd make a big 'ol pan of it and eat it for days. I don't know what it is about this stuff, but I'll tell ya how I make it.

Chicken Stir Fry
Serves 1-3

1lb. boneless skinless chicken breasts, cut into 1-1 1/2 inch pieces
1/2 onion, chopped
3-4 different kinds of vegetables, chopped (I like carrots, celery, red pepper and zuchini)
2-3 cups chicken broth
2-3 tablespoons flour (rice flour works great for us gluten-free folk!)
Olive oil

In a deep skillet over medium heat, saute the onion in the olive oil until transparent. Add chicken, stir occasionally until cooked through. Add veggies and enough broth to not quite cover them. Put a lid on the pan and allow it to steam the veggies until al dente, or tender, whichever you like. Then, shake tablespoons of flour over the whole dish and stir gently. The flour will thicken the broth and give you almost a stew. Adjust the amount of flour and broth for the thickness you like. Add salt and pepper to taste, and a little marjoram or oregano is good too.

Serve over cooked brown rice with extra salt and pepper, if needed. (Don't be afraid to add salt for flavor - this is not as good if it's bland! :)

Voila! Healthy comfort food!

Friday, January 26, 2007

Women

I've been doing a lot of reading about women lately. That kind of sounds strange, I guess, but it's true. Ever since having my children, I've been thinking a lot about why God created us women, and what it means to be a wife and mother.

I have read a few books about this. Captivating (Eldredge) is mostly about God's heart toward women. It talks, among other things, about how men show the strong, warrior side of God, and women can show the merciful, lifegiving side of God. Since we're created in His image (ok, long theological debate there, but go with me for a minute), He demonstrates aspects of His character through His creation. That resounds with me, especially when I look at my babies and think, "You did not even exist before." I had a part in giving life to a person. That is a massive thought.

I also recently read The Red Tent (Diamant). Before you go out and get it, let me warn you that it is very sexual in content. No worse than the standard paperback novel, I would guess. I don't read many of those, but definitely at least PG-13 rated in my book. This book is the imagined story of what Dinah, the daughter of Jacob and Leah in the Bible, could have been like. The author took her extensive knowledge of Jewish tradition and married it with the Biblical narrative. It makes for fascinating reading, even though you know it's just a story. Anyway, the main point of the book is exploring feminine relationships - sister to sister, mother to daughter, friend to friend, and the power that is there. The book treats the husband-wife relationship just as powerfully, but shows there is also something unique to female relationships that is needed in our lives.

Besides those books, I also have my own experiences. I've had one emergency c-section and one homebirth. I know women who have had both experiences, and there are many common things between us. I also lead a small group for women, which probably monthly makes me realize interesting things about how women live and make life work. I also have two sisters and a mother in town, and we communicate fairly openly between the four of us. And, I have two amazing little girls whom I love dearly.

I haven't yet found some answers I'm looking for. I think maybe that's because I'm not sure what the question is. What does it mean to be a woman? Maybe. Seems a little too broad (no pun intended!:). How does God use us as women? Yes, but still not quite right. Maybe it's about purpose and what I'm meant to demonstrate to the world around me. I'm just not sure.

One thing I do know - I'm enchanted by women who are doing it, whatever it is, well. And I'm deeply grieved by women who have been broken down by the world and can't do it at all.

Tuesday, January 23, 2007

Prayer Request

My friend Kim and her family are facing a major challenge. Please be praying for them!

Monday, January 22, 2007

We got our car!

So, once at least one of us practices enough to drive stick for the first time in our lives, I am no longer stuck at home every day. Wow. I can't even imagine it yet. I am so excited!

And...Audrey slept from 9pm to 5am last night. It was glorious.

Sunday, January 21, 2007

Provision

Money is an interesting teacher.

First, a little background. I've already written about how I grew up financially. We lived sale-to-sale on nothing and then like kings after one. This carried over to my first home on my own as an adult. At 22, I decided to quit delaying the inevitable, and went away to college. Due to my medical stuff and the fact that I treat it nutritionally, the private university that "required" all single students to live on campus and buy a dining room meal plan basically forced me to get my own apartment and move out of the dorms. This was great except for two things: I never made many close friends at school, and I did not have the money to live on my own.

I was in school as a music student full time (which all music students know means full time plus practice time. The schedule is insane.) The economy was not great at home so my parents' business hit a lull. I had to figure out how to even stay at school. I took I think 15 private piano students and charged them $15 per lesson. My own piano teacher who had most of her doctorate didn't make much more than that I don't think, and after asking what I charged, was furious with me for charging that much. Hey, people were willing to pay it and I gave them everything I had.

I barely scraped by each month on my piano income, and lived for the day that my school loans would be paid out to the school, and I could request and receive the refund check from the school for the amount I borrowed that went above the cost of tuition. Usually that check would come halfway through the semester. It was usually around $1500.

Having that much money all at once, finally, felt normal to me. I made up for lost time. I went tanning, bought new clothes, at one point bought a palm pilot. But most of all, I would go to Walmart. Every time I got one of those checks, I would spend at least $100-200 at Walmart. Now, I was basically setting up my own new household. I started with nothing, so I'm sure some of that "stuff" was necessary. However, I could have done without a whole lot of it. I remember hiking up the stairs to my third floor apartment, arms full of bags in triumph. I also remember the sick feeling in the pit of my stomach when I set all the bags on the folding table in my dining room and thought about how much I had spent and what it had bought. Why did I think I needed all those things? Nothing I bought was bad. It was kitchen utensils, things for my apartment like pillows for the couch, gardening stuff for the pots of flowers on my deck, etc. All of it useful and most of it was something about which I had said, "I wish I had a....(fill in the blank)." So, I had bought one. I also would buy a back-up for everything I used - from ziplock bags to hand soap. It felt better to me to never run out of anything.

Fast-forward to now. Nick and I are working through Dave Ramsey's teachings about debt and money management. We have made a promise to only spend cash that we have in hand. Recently, we realized that our groceries would not last until grocery day, so we stopped by the store to grab a few things. We had limited cash, but only needed to round out the fridge by a few things to make it through three days. We also needed diapers before more money would come. I went into the store...and spent almost every penny. No money for diapers. In the past, Nick would move bills around and smooth it over, even paying something late if we needed to, in order to accomodate my compulsion. This time, he gently suggested that I take back the extra things. Without even wrestling, I knew he was right. As I stood there feeling very conspicuous, watching the new guy at the register try to figure out how to return vegetables, I had a realization: It's all about provision.

That's what this is all about. A question...Will I have what I need? God, after this is gone and I have needs again, will You provide for me again? I fear the answer is no and therefore I hoard. My attempt at control. I can hold out for a while. I have my spare package of toilet paper. I can wait, even if You are late. Even if You forget I need money for food and deprive me for some time, I can provide for myself and my family out of my over-stocked pantry. It sounds so ridiculous, and yet "stuff" has been my security blanket. I have been through so many seasons when God's timing seemed to be off, that I stopped trusting and starting taking matters into my own hands. Instead of allowing my faith to grow and surrendering my sense of timing to His, I took provision on my own shoulders. Yuck.

I guess I post this because I doubt the problem is unique to me. I get such a sense of purpose from helping other people's lives to be better. The thought that I don't have to carry that weight anymore is incredibly freeing to me. If by chance you see yourself in this blog, maybe you can be freed also. I won't make this cheesy by drawing conclusions myself. You can do that. Just know that God is working in my heart through this process. I like stories like that. Thanks for reading mine.

Thursday, January 18, 2007

Amen

We always pray with the girls before we put them to bed. Hannah has several different funny responses when we're finished. Sometimes we say "Amen," and she says, "mmm-hmmm..." "Okay!" is another favorite. Tonight when we finished, Nick said Amen, and she said, "AMY!" Amy is my sister/her aunt. Amen...Amy...sound the same to me!

When I grow up

I really love my life. I feel the need to preface this post with that, because it could be taken to mean that I'm discontent or unhappy. That's really not it. I have a ton of interests. Since I only have one lifetime, I have chosen the things I most want to do with it. If I had more than one though? I would...

-Stay single or at least not have kids, and do full time worship ministry. I still may do this at some point, but it will have to be later in life, and somehow a 50 year old woman is just not as cool as a 20 year old woman when we're taking about band chicks. Ha!

-Become a naturopathic doctor and do for people what Dr. P does for us.

-Become some sort of scientist involving plants. Preferably one that could work all day in a massive greenhouse. I am fascinated by that kind of thing.

-Live in New York, Germany, California, Australia, and Israel. (As an adult. I lived in CA as a child. Doesn't count.)

-Own and operate an organic farm. Maybe we'll do this one yet!

-Be in politics. Run for office or go to Washington and work as an intern.

-Teach high school English. I LOVED my high school English teachers.

-Publish a book. Maybe I still will!

There are probably more. Maybe I'll think of them and add them later. The great thing when I think about this, is I really have chosen my favorite thing - being a mom - at least for the time being. That was always a non-negotiable in my childhood dreams.

What would you do?

Wednesday, January 17, 2007

toes


toes, originally uploaded by sakalomi.

Aren't these some of the cutest feet you've ever seen?

A Confession

I HATE eating leftovers. I don't know what it is. Maybe it's my newfound enjoyment of cooking. Maybe it's the fact that I cook what I feel like eating, when I feel like eating it or I can't eat. Maybe it's my upbringing. I think my mother spent most of my childhood rebelling against the fact that she was made to eat leftovers growing up. Maybe it's the smell of unheated food. It makes me want to hurl. Maybe it's the poor job a microwave does of maintaining the original texture of the food.

I have no idea. But I hate them.

Tuesday, January 16, 2007

If I could be...wasting my time...with you

A little throwback to my mountain/hippie/band chick days there for ya...some Phish lyrics.

This has been a pretty good week, I have to say. Among the fun things:

-Nick and I got to have a date tonight. We're making a new attempt at the weekly date night. So many couples we know swear by it. My sister Holly and brother in law Dave stayed with the girls, and a good time was had by all, I believe. Hannah says "Holly?" (Hawyee?)

-At tonight's date, Nick broke his week-long cleansing fast with Halibut, sweet potatoes and salad at Ranch Steakhouse. They're great - organic produce, wild-caught fish. A little pricey, but not bad when you split something like we did. After doing this fast, everything tastes wonderful. Your taste buds sing when you eat...a carrot. Nick, in whom I have always appreciated his sense of wonder anyway, is so much fun to watch because he is enjoying food so much. Plus, it doesn't make him sick anymore. He has tons of energy, needs only 5 hours of sleep or so, doesn't get headaches, he lost 10 POUNDS in one week - some fat, mostly water weight that his food allergies were keeping him from getting rid of... I wish everybody had the motivation and money to do this stuff Dr. P suggests. The world would simply be a better place.

-Took the girls and went grocery shopping today. There's a little co-op natural foods store that we go to every week. They all know us. The owners always offer Hannah a banana while we shop. We walk in, and there's a collective "HI!" from the staff. It's nice to be known. It's a little like CHEERS. Ha!

-We are, in fact, getting a second car this week. It's literally turquoise, but it's a jeep cherokee that my sister and brother in law are selling us. This is terrific news that I am so excited about. We did do the one-car thing for almost three months though, I think. It can be done. It's not fun, but it can be done. The downside of all this, is the check engine light came on in the jetta this evening. We also still have to get the damage fixed from the hit-and-run incident. If it's not one thing...

-The girls seem to be well again for the most part. Audrey is taking a little longer to get rid of the stuffy nose, but Hannah's croupy cough that sounded awful Friday morning never developed into anything at all. Yay!

-We still haven't dedicated Audrey at church. They do baby dedications every first weekend of the month. We went to Dillard's and found a beautiful christening gown for $25. Hannah has one from her shower, but we needed a stroller instead of an expensive gown when Audrey was born, therefore we've been waiting. Those are just something I wanted the girls to have for keepsakes, and we were able to get Audrey a pretty one. I was so happy about that!

-I got a copy of "The Devil Wears Prada" on Paperbackswap.com. I still haven't seen the movie, but decided I would read the book, just for fun. I'm not a huge fiction reader at all. Anyway, the book is silly and entertaining. "Frivolous," I think is the word the review used. It's fun to do something frivolous now and then.

Alright. I'm done cooking squash for Nick's breakfast (heehee-he has to eat squash for breakfast!), so I suppose I should go to bed. Goodnight all!

Saturday, January 13, 2007

I feel...

really good today. And so does Nick. And Dr P is my hero. Again. And Hannah no longer has croup. And she is currently eating sweet potatoes with a spoon because she is a big girl. And Audrey is 4 months old and sleeps 6-8 hours a night. And life is pretty good. Thought I would share.

Have a lovely Saturday.

Friday, January 12, 2007

Ha!


join em, originally uploaded by sakalomi.

Thursday, January 11, 2007

Seriously. You need to do this.

Got my first door-to-door organics delivery today. I'm impressed! First of all, they're super easy to work with, very friendly. And, all the produce was perfect. Much better than what I could find at Vitamin Cottage, both in selection and price. I'm excited. This week, we're trying chard and leeks. Haven't had those. Everything else is stuff I would normally buy, and if I didn't want to try chard and leeks, I could tell them and they would bring me something else! Super cool...

Oh, and if you're in the springs and you want to try it with me, we'll all save money if we can get 4 people together to have it delivered to the same location every week. Let me know if you're interested.

Wednesday, January 10, 2007

today's headlines

*Nick starts his Dr. P diet today. It starts with a week-long fast with just water and this protein shake stuff.
*I need new print cartridges. Why are those so expensive?
*The outlet my computer is plugged into keeps turning off. There's nothing wrong with the circuit.
*My girls have fresh, new...colds. With coughs.
*I'm starting door-to-door organics delivery this week. It's gonna be fun...
*I have a new student starting this week. Yay!
*This is a boring post.

Tuesday, January 9, 2007

This is scary...

Did you know the FDA has decided to allow ranchers and farmers to sell meat and milk from cloned animals? Unless you buy stuff labeled Organic (which has always and continues to have higher standards), you won't even know, because they aren't required to label it. Who knows how this will work? Just as an example, I've been doing lots of research on celiac disease, since Hannah has a gluten intolerance. It seems that celiac wouldn't even exist if we weren't constantly eating hybridized grains. Over the years, companies have produced grain that was stronger, better able to grow during droughts, resistent to disease and insects, etc. This has changed the genetic makeup of grain, and therefore it no longer matches what our body recognizes and digests. Bad news. Now they're doing the same thing with animals, except to a greater extent. What new problems will this cause, and what new drugs will they produce to "cure" it? Yuck. Read this for more info.

Monday, January 8, 2007

Today is my mom's birthday

So, all 11 of us (two parents, all five kids, two grandkids, and two sons in law), went to Cracker Barrel (her favorite) for dinner, and then to Mr. Biggs for bowling. It was really fun. I haven't been bowling in probably 10 years. My friends always wanted to go, and I always refused because bowling alleys are always such smokey, nasty places. I have a hard time having fun in that environment. Yes, I am a nerd. Anyway, with so many adults to pass babies to, it was easy and fun to have the girls there. And my brother Ryan, newly operated-upon knee and all, walked with Hannah all over the whole place. She had a blast.

My family has always made a huge deal out of birthdays, and I'm not even entirely sure what we did that made them so fun. The birthday person always got to choose a restaurant for lunch or dinner, and usually an activity. When we were young, we'd have massive parties with 10 or 12 little kids sometimes. I don't know how my mom did it. Yet. I'll be figuring it out shortly!

What do you do to make birthdays special?

Teaching Enthusiasm

I have a piano student who showed up for his lesson today, asking if he could learn something and maybe perform in his homeschool graduation ceremony in May. Apparently they have kids audition. He'd have to win the one available spot. No pressure. However, I thought almost immediately of this one piece by Jon Schmidt. (He has lots of free downloads on his site, if you're an interested pianist.) The coolest thing about the piece, is the section in which you use your forearm across all the black keys. With a little flair, "All Of Me" will be quite the performance piece. It's tricky - not something I can play very well right off, even after 20 years of experience. When I played a little of it for him though, his eyes lit up. This kid can be summed up in one word...mellow. Not easily excitable, very methodical. Trying to get him to give me a difference between forte and piano is like pulling teeth. But, with images dancing through his head of playing a fun piece like that in front of all those families, his enthusiasm may just carry him to "greatness." I hope it does.

Finding the thing that will make that "spark" is the hardest part. The spark does the work for me as a teacher, if I can only find it.

Sunday, January 7, 2007

Do you ever watch mythbusters?

It's Nick's favorite. They just smashed two semi trucks into a compact car.

After further thought...

...about the "online relationships" thing, it seems that it is important to strike a delicate balance. On the one hand, revealing enough about yourself that people can know you and learn from you. On the other hand, maintaining the privacy of yourself and your family members. Kind of a no-brainer, I suppose, except that so few people do it well. I think especially my generation and younger have a tendency toward revealing too much. Myspace users are notorious for this. Word to the wise: do not gripe about somebody--anybody--online. There's no such thing as a secret. I suppose there are also people who only present the best parts of themselves online, and therefore people don't realize they also have problems, but really.... Everybody has things to work through. We all know that.

Sorry for the rambling. I suppose I'm trying to work out what's appropriate in my own blogs. :)

Thursday, January 4, 2007

Online Communities

My friend Kim posted this today about whether the relationships formed through online dialogue are "real." I think she makes some great points.

I have this to add: I am currently re-reading a book by John and Stasi Eldredge called "Captivating." Here's an excerpt I think applies:

"For many centuries women lived in close fellowship with other women - gathering at the well, down by the river,m preparing meals - many occasions for femininity to just sort of naturally pass from older women to younger women. Our intuition, our keen eye for relationship, our ability to grasp matters of the heart made any sort of formal "passage" into femininity unnecessary. Nowadays those opportuntities are nearly gone. When we meet as women, it tends to be in high-stress situations - corporate meetings with deadlines, ministry meetings with agendas, PTA meetings with concerns. The home is the only place left for this vital transmission of feminine identity."

I submit that the internet has become another place for this "vital transmission." We can learn how to cook, how to take care of children, how to manage our households, how to clean, how to love our husbands, how to love our God, and any number of other things from watching other women. When we blog, we give a little glimpse into our private lives that I think have become a little TOO private in our society. We need to know that others have struggles, and they need to know the same about us. When we have other capable, loving women we are learning from we are able to be confident in our methods.

This is a post for another day, but I also see it as proof that humans were created for relationship. If we don't have them, we FIND them. In whatever way necessary!

The Total Money Makeover

Growing up, we had kind of a strange financial situation. My dad owned his own business selling high-end accounting software. It was a very decent living, but it was...rather up and down. For example, he could possibly make a sale that would be $30,000. And then it would be four months before he would make anything else. This led to some spending habits. When we had money, we would feel like making up for lost time. When we didn't, we lived VERY cheaply. There was always the hope that a huge check would come in the mail, maybe any day. It may not, and things may stay hard that week, but there was the hope.

Now that I'm married, we have a weekly paycheck and no more. But it's steady. Because of how I grew up, that has always been weird.

My dad, of all people, "discovered" Dave Ramsey a few months ago. He now has Nick and my brother-in-law Dave listening to the radio show. This guy has provided more encouragement to us financially, than anything else we've done. And we've done quite a few things to figure out our finances.

Nick and I are currently reading Dave Ramsey's book, "The Total Money Makeover." We have actually never finished a book we started reading together. Last night Nick read to me for 1 1/2 hours. I was shocked! :) We feel like we know how to made good decisions that will help our situation finally. Confidence makes all the difference!

Wednesday, January 3, 2007

Thrift store finds and classified ads

So, for Christmas we had wanted to get Hannah a toy kitchen. Went to Toys R Us...nothing under $100. You gotta be kidding me. We did other things instead, and she had a great Christmas. Then, tonight we hit Goodwill on the way home from our date, and what did we find? A kitchen. For $6. Seriously. Now, I have no idea if she'll actually play with it all that much, but for $6 I'll find out.

In addition, we got a two-door filing cabinet for $5, with which I will organize the never-ending pile of papers that always somehow ends up on my kitchen counter.

And, I put an ad in the local American Classifieds for the washer and dryer we don't need since our rental has them included, and the desk we don't have space for. Nifty, huh? Anybody need a washer and dryer? They don't match, but they work! :)

Tuesday, January 2, 2007

...two steps back

Somebody hit our car in the last 24 hours and didn't stop to tell us. Therefore, we have to pay the deductible to get it fixed because we're planning on selling it as soon as we can. Why in the world would somebody do that? It's hard sometimes to realize how many people lack integrity.

Hummus

Okay, since I was up till 1:30 last night waiting for beans to cook, I figure I'll let you know that the hummus is delicious. If you've never tried it, you should. But you should make it yourself because I'm sure it tastes better. Here's the recipe I used, thanks to Gluten-Free Girl

Hummus

--one can of chickpeas (also known as garbanzo beans. I cooked my own, and used 2 cups)
--five tablespoons of tahini (this is basically pureed sesame seeds. Not as weird as you think)
--three tablespoons of olive oil
--the juice of two lemons (I used 4 tablespoons)
--two to four cloves of garlic (4 would make it VERY garlicky!)
--half a tablespoon of sea salt
--1/4 cup of reserved liquid from chickpeas (or water is fine)

Combine in blender or food processor.

Eat with chips or raw vegetables, or spread it on bread and have a sandwich with tomato and avocado. Yum!

Maybe I have just not paid attention, but until recently I didn't cook beans and didn't know if you cook beans the right way, they won't make you sick. Always soak them overnight and drain the water and put fresh water in for cooking, then skim away the froth that forms on top of the water as they cook. That's the gas, and you can get rid of most of it.

Monday, January 1, 2007

Christmas gifts

My parents have always spent a whole lot of money on Christmas. More than most people's families, anyway. My mom just loves to give gifts. It's expensive, but it sure is fun.

With that little disclaimer, I took my Christmas money and bought cooking stuff tonight. I feel like an official domesticated dork. I got a food processor (since the old one melted in the dishwasher), a new cutting board, and a colander. Therefore, I decided at 10:30 that I would make hummus in my new food processor, thus the reason I am still up at 12:30, waiting for garbanzo beans to cook. I am a nerd. I'm not even sure we'll like it. I've had it once, I think.

For Christmas at my parent's house, I got a real skillet. A real one, as opposed to the $40 12-piece set we've been using since we got married. If you consider yourself a poor cook and do not have good tools, you should try getting good tools. I'm telling you, I'm amazed at how different it is cooking in this little pan. Speaking of...I'm going to make myself an egg.

Recipies and such

This is an email Dr. P's office sent out at the beginning of December. The suggestions here are good year-round, plus there are some interesting recipies. I'm planning to try a couple of them this week.

Celebrate with Seasonal Tips & Guilt-Free Recipes

The winter and holiday season can seem like a five- or six-week buffet. But with some simple preparation, many of us can make it through the season without getting any heavier. So eat, drink, and be merry. But most of all, be healthy!

6 Tips for Success

1. Set realistic goals. Expecting to lose weight amongst all the celebrations is probably unrealistic and will make you feel guilty if you don't. Instead, plan to keep your weight and body fat percentage the same. Allow yourself an occasional indulgence, but don't go overboard. Even if you only maintain your present weight and/or body fat percentage, then that's still an accomplishment! Don't get discouraged and quit—just resolve to make a new goal for the new year and move ahead full steam!

2. Eat a low-glycemic-load diet. Eat foods that have a low glycemic load (GL)—such as vegetables, lean proteins, and fiber-rich carbs—which help you stay fuller longer, maintain a smaller rise in blood glucose levels after meals, prolong physical endurance, and keep insulin levels low to burn fat more efficiently and help you lose weight. Research suggests that consumption of high-GL foods (sweets, simple carbs, processed foods, sodas) may promote obesity by causing you to eat more. Other evidence suggests that following a diet comprised of primarily low-GL foods may be important in the treatment and prevention of chronic diseases. So stick to low-GL foods for high yields in health!

3. Eat frequent, small meals. It's good advice year round, but especially during party season. Don't go to a party or event on an empty stomach. The trick is to continue eating the recommended six small meals a day so you never get to the state of hunger that wears down your resistance. Before going out, have a small meal or healthy snack that includes protein, which satisfies hunger and helps you eat less.

4. Increase your activity. In addition to lifting your spirits, exercise is an important part of a healthy lifestyle program. Even if your eating habits stray (just a little), you can still stay on the track to better health by expanding your current exercise routine to burn those extra calories.

5. Plan your indulgences wisely. If you are going to give into temptation, do so with thought. Don't waste your calories on foods you don't really love. Scope out the scene, ID the food you can't live without and go for it (ideally a small portion). Following are some common buffet items that you can feel good about (next to your favorite indulgence):
Veggies (skip the dip) Sliced turkey & chicken
Smoked salmon Hummus and pita bread
Salsa Mixed greens (no dressing)
Bean salad Lean roasted lamb or beef
Fruit (berries, melons) Black-eyed peas
Fresh shellfish Nuts (not candied)
Sweet potatoes (no marshmallows) Green bean casserole (w/o fried onions)
Brown rice Lettuce wraps
Guacamole Chicken fajita meat & veggies

6. Relax and enjoy. Stress management is an important part of a healthy lifestyle. Don't let the holidays run you down or stress you out. Simplify traditions, watch your commitments and don't get caught up in the rush. Make time to enjoy the season's sights, sounds, and flavors!

Creating Non-Guilty Taste Pleasures

Try these great recipes to make a part of your winter traditions or everyday meals. They'll also make a great addition to the gatherings you attend. Savor the flavor without the guilt!

Warm Mushroom Salad Serves 6

1 tbsp. olive oil 1/2 cup water
1/2 pound mushrooms 1 pinch salt
3 cloves minced garlic 1 pinch fresh ground pepper
1 tsp. each, basil & marjoram 1 Tbsp. fresh chopped parsley or fresh coriander (cilantro)
1 medium tomato, diced
3 Tbsp. lemon juice

Heat oil on low in a frying pan, then gently sauté the mushrooms for 2-3 minutes. Do not overcook.

Sprinkle in garlic and basil, then toss the mixture for a minute or two so that mushrooms are well coated. Add the tomato, lemon juice, water, salt, and pepper. Stir together and cook until the tomato softens. Remove from heat and let cool. Garnish with chopped herbs.

Spaghetti Squash Parmesan Serves 6-8
1 spaghetti squash, cut in half 1 Tbsp. lemon juice
1 cup chopped fresh tomato (substitute canned if necessary) 1 tsp. each, basil & oregano
1/3 cup sliced green onions Salt and pepper to taste
4 Tbsp. grated Parmesan cheese

Place the squash, cut side down, on a greased cookie sheet. Bake at 350o for about 30-45 minutes or until a knife pierces the skin without resistance. Allow the squash to cool and scoop out and discard the seeds. Using a fork, scrape the flesh into strands. In a Dutch oven or large pot, add tomatoes, green onions, Parmesan, lemon juice, basil, oregano, salt and pepper. Toss well to coat with sauce. Cook 1 minute over medium-high heat to heat through.

Pumpkin Custard Serves 4
2 eggs 1/2 tsp ginger
1/2 cup agave syrup 1/4 tsp. nutmeg
1 1/2 cups canned or pureed pumpkin 1/8 tsp. ground cloves
1 tsp cinnamon 1/8 tsp. salt
1/2 tsp ginger Butter

Butter a shallow, 1 1/2 quart baking dish. In a medium mixing bowl, mix eggs, syrup, and 1 1/2 cups pumpkin. Slowly mix in milk. In a separate medium bowl, mix spices. Add liquid mixture to spice mixture and pour into prepared baking dish. Set dish in a large baking pan. Add hot water to the large pan to a depth of about 1 inch. It should come about halfway up the side of the inner baking dish. Bake for about 50 minutes at 325° or until custard is set and a knife inserted near the center comes out clean. Cool completely before serving; can be covered and refrigerated overnight.

Deviled Eggs Yields 12
6 large boiled eggs
3-4 Tbsp. roasted tomato hummus
Paprika (optional)

To boil eggs, place eggs in enough cold water to cover completely, bring to a rolling boil over high heat. Reduce heat to a lower MEDIUM BOIL and cook an additional 12 minutes. Promptly chill eggs so yolks stay bright yellow. Remove shells from eggs, and halve lengthwise with a knife. Carefully remove the yolks, and place in a medium bowl. Mash yolks with a fork and add tomato hummus. Very carefully spoon mixture back into the egg white halves. Garnish with a light sprinkling of paprika.

Fruit Salad Serves 6
1 large bag of frozen mangoes (or 3 fresh mangoes) Other fruit of choice
3 kiwis, sliced 1/2 cup chopped nuts (e.g., walnuts)
2 large oranges, divided into sections 1/2 cup plain yogurt
1/2 to 1 pint fresh berries (if available) Stevia or agave syrup (optional)

Defrost bag of frozen mangoes or cut up fresh mangoes and put in a pretty bowl for serving. Add kiwi fruits, oranges, and fresh berries. (Frozen berries will lose their shape and are not advised. Pomegranate berries add beautiful color and are a healthy addition.) You may add any other acceptable fruit of choice. Top with chopped nuts yogurt. Gently stir to mix. If the taste it too tart, add a sprinkle of stevia or mix in some agave syrup.

Veggie Egg Wrap Serves 6
1 small onion, chopped 6 eggs
2 Tsp. olive oil 1/2 cup grated part skim mozzarella
3/4 cup leftover veggies of choice (mushrooms, spinach, zucchini, bell peppers) 6 low carb tortillas

Sauté onion in 1 tsp. olive oil, stirring until softened. Add veggies and mix until warm. Remove from pan. Add 1 tsp. more olive oil and scramble eggs with cheese until almost done. Stir in veggies and continue to cook until done. Fill tortillas with egg scramble and serve immediately.

Green Beans Almondine Serves 4
10 oz. pkg frozen French style green beans 1 Tbsp. olive oil
1 small onion, diced 1/3 cup sliced almonds

Steam green beans for about 10-15 minutes, or until softened. In a separate pan, sauté onion in olive oil. When onion is softened, add almonds and continue to sauté until just beginning to brown slightly. Add cooked green beans and stir to mix well. Serve immediately.

Sweet Potato Delight Serves 8
1 large sweet potato or yam (peeled and cut into small pieces) 1/4 tsp. nutmeg
1 small Butternut squash (peeled and cut into small pieces) Lowfat milk, soy milk or almond milk
1 tsp. cinnamon Sliced almonds & nutmeg for garnish
1/2 tsp. ginger

Steam sweet potato or yam and butternut squash together until soft. Blend in a food processor (a blender will not do the job) with spices. While processing, slowly add enough milk to make the consistency slightly looser than mashed potatoes. Place the mixture in an ovenproof dish, about 1 1/2 Qt. (You can make ahead up to this point and store in refrigerator until ready to bake and eat.) Sprinkle nutmeg and sliced almonds on top as a garnish and bake at 350o for about 15 minutes.

Frittata Serves 6
1 medium onion, diced Several fresh basil leaves (or 1 tsp. dried)
1 Tbsp. olive oil 3 Tbsp. grated parmesan cheese
1/2 red bell pepper, diced 1 avocado, sliced in wedges
1 cup mushrooms, diced Cherry tomatoes, halved
8 eggs

Preheat broiler. Sauté onion in olive oil in a 12-inch ovenproof nonstick skillet over moderate heat, stirring, until softened. Add red bell pepper and mushrooms and continue to sauté. In a medium bowl, mix eggs with basil. When vegetables are nicely acquainted, pour egg mixture into skillet and cook, lifting up cooked egg around edge using a spatula to let as much raw egg as possible flow underneath, until edge is set, about 2 minutes (top and center will still be very loose). Sprinkle parmesan cheese evenly over top. Broil frittata about 6 inches from heat until set, slightly puffed, and golden, 2 to 2 1/2 minutes. Cool frittata 5 minutes, then loosen edge with a clean spatula and slide onto a large plate. Garnish with wedges of avocado and cherry tomatoes cut in half. Cut into wedges.

Breakfast with Michelle


my new plant, originally uploaded by sakalomi.

Nick's sister Michelle drove down from Boulder to see us today. She brought me a plant. Isn't it pretty? She and Nick watched the Nebraska game. We had eggs, turkey sausage, gluten free cranberry orange muffins, grapefruit and orange juice. The girls played and made us laugh.

After the girls went to take a nap, we really got to talk some. She's 40 years old, never been married, always wanted to be. She has a job for a massive company that is a continual struggle. Boulder is a ridiculously expensive city to live in. She's planning a major life change - moving back to Nebraska, finding a new job, and trying to adopt a child. This is the first we had heard of it. She really has nothing to lose and everything to gain.

Several thoughts cross my mind. First, what an adventure to dream about! I have found you can handle just about anything if you have hope. If there are dreams of a better day, a possibility for happiness and joy down the road, dark places aren't so bad. Second, how blessed I am! My life is full of people to love and people who love me. I always had big dreams of doing something grand with my life. I dreamed of being famous, of changing the world. Maybe I still will, who knows? For right now, I'm pretty grateful for my husband who is gentle and kind, and my girls who make my life so full of joy.

Finances can be hard, relationships can be tricky, health can be somewhat elusive, and all of my dreams have yet to come true. But, the bottom line is we're blessed!